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Let's Talk About: Elidel (Pimecrolimus) & Eucrisa (Crisaborole)




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Welcome back to another post in my 'Let's Talk About' series, sharing the topics surrounding our iatrogenic condition that desperately need to be discussed. 

Just like with my Protopic post, before I write another sentence, I'd like to start with some disclaimers:
  1. I am not a medical professional, and anything shared in this post should not be taken as medical advice.
  2. I think I have probably made my feelings clear on where I stand with these non-steroidal alternatives, so whilst I have never used Elidel ('just' Protopic), it is hard for me to remain objective when presented with what all this medication has done, and continues to do, in the treatment of eczema, other skin conditions, and TSW.  
  3. This post is not intended to scaremonger, but to share experiences and information, because the only information out there right now is the insinuation that if something is non-steroidal, it is completely safe, and so people use these alternatives blindly believing they'll be totally fine when they would probably have been better off sticking with a topical steroid – trust me when I say that I don't write this lightly as I know how damaging steroids can be (first-hand), and I am certainly not offering medical advice here.
  4. To those who need to take some form of steroid or immunosuppressant as TSW simply isn't an option for them, please know that this post isn't meant to judge those who need to use this medication, or something similar, and if anyone is judging you, that is simply wrong. I just believe that people need to know all the facts so they can make an informed decision on what medication is right (or wrong) for them. Our community was formed because we didn't know all the side effects and suffered because of it. It all comes down to informed consent. 
The structure of this post is very similar to the Protopic one and will be broken up into sections. I will be starting with Elidel; offering some background on the drug, exactly what it is, and some facts on it from the published information available to us at this time. I will then share experiences from those who have used Elidel, before following the same format with Eucrisa.   

Just like I said in my Protopic post, I hope you find this informative, but do read with caution as the experiences (and even just reading the background of this medication) might be triggering for some.

ELIDEL (Pimecrolimus)

What is Elidel?

Elidel is the brand/trade name for Pimecrolimus, which is the generic name for it.

Pimecrolimus is an immunomodulating agent (something that 'stimulates or suppresses' the immune system) and part of a class of medicine known as topical calcineurin inhibitors. The other medication that is part of this dysfunctional family is Protopic (Tacrolimus). It is available as a topical cream and used to treat skin conditions like eczema in people who have not responded to other medications like topical steroids (this point is mentioned in literally every resource I found on Elidel).

Taken from the US Food and Drug Administration (FDA) website (here), Elidel (Pimecrolimus) cream 1%, sold by the pharmaceutical company, Novartis, was approved for use by the FDA on 13th December 2001 for 'short-term and long-term therapy in the treatment of mild to moderate atopic dermatitis in non-immunocompromised patients 2 years of age and older, in whom the use of alternative, conventional therapies is deemed inadvisable because of potential risks, or in the treatment of patients who are not adequately responsive to or intolerant of alternative, conventional therapies'.

Around the same time as Protopic, in 2002, Elidel was approved for medical use in the European Union for the treatment of moderate to severe atopic dermatitis. During my research into this medication, I came across this article from the website, The Pharma Letter (here), and I thought I'd share an extract from it as it perfectly sums up the state of things – that people are a disposable but valuable commodity and profit comes first:

With a US launch anticipated early this year, Elidel will be one of the first new treatments for eczema since topical corticosteroids were introduced almost 50 years ago, said Novartis in a statement.

Specifically, Elidel is approved for the short-term and intermittent long-term treatment of mild-to-moderate eczema in patients over two years of age who do not respond well to, or may have side effects with, conventional treatments. In a note to clients, analysts at Swiss broker Julius Baer commented that the approved label for Elidel is slightly less advantageous than they had hoped for (ie it has been approved by the FDA for use in children aged two years and older, rather than those over one year).

Recognizing this disappointment, Novartis said that it was committed to the development of the drug for use in infants, which make up a sizeable sector of the eczema patient population and for whom "the need for new therapeutic alternatives is significant." However, Julius Baer does not see this as a serious impediment to the prospects for the drug, noting: "we retain our 320 million Swiss franc ($193 million) sales forecast by 2004," they said.

Other analysts also commented that Elidel is not a blockbuster product for the treatment of atopic dermatitis, as the global market for products treating this condition is currently valued at just 1.1 billion Swiss francs. However, Elidel has clear advantages in terms of its side-effect profile, as it is free of the adverse events usually associated with steroid drugs, such as skin atrophy and growth retardation in children.

In March 2005, Protopic and Elidel were given a black box warning by the FDA due to their possible cancer risk (skin and lymphoma), but eczema organisations like the NEA (National Eczema Association) are trying to dilute concerns surrounding these findings (see the article they wrote about black box warnings, just one day after my post on Protopic *here*). Thanks to Lia (@tsw_sojourner), who was part of my Protopic post, for sharing the article, Association Between Topical Calcineurin Inhibitor Use and Risk of Cancer, Including Lymphoma, Keratinocyte Carcinoma, and Melanoma (here) which says that lymphoma risk was elevated with the use of Topical Calcineurin Inhibitors. I have already discussed in my Protopic post (here) that in my teens I had to go to the hospital to get photos taken after developing liver spots as a result of using Protopic, so I massively roll my eyes at the attempt to suppress such serious side effects.

The most common known side effects of Elidel in medical literature are listed as:

  • Burning or warm feeling (at the skin application site).
  • Mild infections (including flu and other viral infections like the common cold).
  • Headaches.
  • Swelling in the nasal passages and at the back of the throat, which can cause a bunged up nose or sore throat.

All symptoms are said to subside after a few days.

More serious side effects that are reported, but allegedly rare, are:

  • Serious infections (signs of infection include: high temperature, swollen lymph nodes and a persistent, sore throat).
  • Allergic reactions (which includes dizziness, trouble breathing, irritation and swelling).

Something interesting to also mention is that during clinical studies, there were apparently reports of skin warts in children, but interestingly, no warts were reported in adults who used Elidel. 

It is very hard to find an article online that doesn't mention Protopic in the same breath as Elidel, which makes sense, I suppose, seeing as they were literally developed around the same time ... approved at the same time ... in the same class of drugs (that they are the only members of) ... topical immunosuppressants ... and, after reading people's experiences with them, share very similar side effects.

With that being said, I will pass it over to the wonderful people in our community who have kindly shared their experiences with Elidel:


18-24

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
Throughout my childhood, I used Locoid and Advantan very occasionally for the inside of my elbows and backs of my knees, but my eczema was pretty well controlled. I have used seretide inhalers and steroid nasal sprays for as long as I can remember (I had no idea either contained steroids). I began to get patches of eczema on my face in 2013. From this point I began using steroid creams such as Eumovate 0.05% cream on my face sparingly until I was given Elidel in 2017 and continued to use Locoid and Elocon for the eczema on my body.

2. When did you use Elidel?
I was given Elidel during my second year at University (2017). This was the first time I ever saw a dermatologist for my skin. I think I used it on and off for about 6 months but later developed really bad light sensitivity and finally realised it was the Elidel causing it. I then only occasionally used it until this last year (2021) when I saw another dermatologist and she prompted me to use it again. I think I used it on and off for 2 months, but this time avoiding the eye area (because that’s where it burned last time, not because my dermatologist told me to avoid that area).

3. How much Elidel did you use?
Can’t recall exactly how much but maybe 2-3 tubes worth between 2017 and 2021.

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
I used it twice during my first week as I didn’t realise initially that it contributed towards TSW as I was told it was a safe alternative to steroids.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
Yes, the 2 months prior to going into TSW.

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Yes, once I started using it the eczema on my face spread and began to worsen. I believe it is what kicked me into TSA. This is when the eczema began to change from normal dry eczema patches to hot red uncontrollable skin.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
Absolutely not.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
I think it is terrible that Elidel is now being promoted as an alternative to topical steroids and that doctors are claiming to be incredibly safe. At least with steroids I was aware that overuse can possibly lead to thinning of the skin so I was very cautious about my applications, but with Elidel I was told I could use as much of it as I wanted as often as I wanted. When I first started using it I developed really bad light sensitivity where sometimes people would have to walk me home because I couldn’t open my eyes and it burned so badly. Once I realised it was the Elidel I stopped using it immediately.
Around 4 years later when I saw another dermatologist, she highly recommended I start using Elidel again since I kept insisting that the steroids were no longer working. When I told her that it really burned and that it gave me terrible light sensitivity she told me ‘you just have to push past the burning and eventually it will get better’. I completely regret ever using Elidel and it terrifies me that more and more people are using creams like Elidel as the medical community start realising the dangers of topical steroids.


Amy Nicole (@mummy2oakley)
25-34
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I have had eczema on and off since I was a baby but recently, in the last year, I’ve used steroid creams and also tablets on and off for the last 18 months. I've used other immunosuppressant tablets for the last few years, too, and Dupixent (which didn’t work for me).

2. When did you use Elidel?
January to September 2021.

3. How much Elidel did you use?
I used it pretty much everyday, but if not everyday, definitely every week! 

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
No. 

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
No. It started to stop working and not be as effective so I began to question it. I couldn’t stand the burning when I applied it and the sensitivity to light and heat (even when I would open the oven). I didn’t know about TSW until probably about Sept 21 and that’s when I stopped Elidel. I then used more steroids on my face and body nearly everyday and Protopic cream, too! I stopped using steroids etc in December 2021.

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
I believe I’m in withdrawal from steroids and Elidel/Protopic as I used them all round my eyes and lips and that’s where I now have redness, burning, itching, flaking, and much worse than before I used all those creams!!

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
I would never use Elidel again and even though it gave me some relief at first, I wish I’d never used it! 


Michele (@mazzommw)
55+
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
Mild eczema since I was a child, but not treated with steroids until I was a teen. Continued use of topical steroids, oral, and systemic for well over thirty-five years, with Elidel being the main topical used in the last 7 years. Used these treatments very judiciously. In fact, I think I've been in TSW for the last 15 years because I was always going off of the medicine or using a very little amount. 

2. When did you use Elidel?
Although I was prescribed Elidel by my derm, it really became front and centre when I started Dupixent in 2018. The allergist told me to use Elidel on my eyelids when my face and eyes continued to flare after starting Dupixent. I was reticent, but he assured me that "it wasn't a steroid".  He was uninformed and I was fooling myself. Stopped Elidel and all topicals and orals in Oct 2019. Stopped Dupixent in March 2020 after two years of use (2018-2020).

3. How much Elidel did you use?
Again, a tube would last me a year. Applied very judiciously and only on the face and eyelids. Kept trying to stop, that's why my face/eyelids were constantly flared for years – even when on the medications. 

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
No, I went off of all topicals in Oct 2019 and then off Dupixent in March 2020 after two years of use. No use of Elidel since Oct 2019. I started TSW in Oct 2019 and remained on Dupixent for six additional months. Have been off of everything since March 2020. Yay me!!

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
Yes. Limited Elidel use for 7 years before TSW. 

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
My main topical for years has been Elidel so I truly believe that it has contributed greatly to my TSW. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
Absolutely not. The Dr gave me very bad advice to continue Elidel while on Dupixent. Especially on my eyelids!!!

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
Steroids and Elidel. Both have caused a severe TSW experience for me. Two years later and my eyelids are still constantly flared, itchy and peeling; I rarely have a "normal day". I am making progress for sure, but still have a way to go. I do believe the use of Elidel on my eyelids has caused constant issues with my actual eyeballs which remain dry and irritated. I am under the care of an optometrist who is understanding. 


18-24 
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
Topical steroids on and off from January 2020 until October 2020 (including Hydrocortisone, Mometasone Furoate, Prednicarbate).
Oral steroids for 12 days in May 2020 (Prednisolone).
Elidel from August 2020 until November 2020.

2. When did you use Elidel?
From August 2020 until November 2020.

3. How much Elidel did you use?
Twice a day.

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
No.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
Yes. I stopped topical steroids in October 2020 and continued to use Elidel until November 2020. When I stopped Elidel, I immediately went into a terrible withdrawal.

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
While using Elidel, my TSW symptoms did not show. Only one day after stopping Elidel, my withdrawal syptoms started to show. I think that Elidel suppressed my TSW symptoms and did not help with weaning off of them. I feel like the areas where I applied Elidel are now way more affected by TSW than the areas where I solely put topical steroids.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
No.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
Elidel might help with small flare ups when you have atopic dermatitis but in my experience it is not suitable to treat or help with TSW. In my case, it only suppressed the TSW symptoms for as long as I used it and I immediately went into TSW when I stopped Elidel. I already had TSW symptoms in July 2020 that were then treated with topical steroids and Elidel. These symptoms were not nearly as severe as my symptoms in November 2020 when I finally stopped everything. The only difference between these two points was my Elidel use. From my point of view, it might be that Elidel even worsened my TSW symptoms once I stopped using it. I would not recommend using it.


Lilyanna (@lilyannar)
35-44 
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
Baby to 27 years old use of topical steroids (stopped breathing as a baby and was injected with steroids as treatment in ER. Coincidentally developed eczema right after the steroid shot and then continued TS and oral steroids treatment. My belief is that the steroid shot I had was the beginning of my downfall. 
I discovered TSW when TS and oral steroids were no longer able to to hide my condition. Mt first attempt at TSW was when I was 27 years old, but due to several hospitalisations, I succumbed to pressure to use steroids and immunosuppressants after 3 years of TSW. 
From 30 - 32 years old, I used immunosuppressants (Methotrexate and Cyclosporine), but knowing the following treatments would not work, I began my 2nd attempt of TSW at 32 years old. Treatment: NMT. Total steroid use, almost 30 years.

2. When did you use Elidel?
This was prescribed when I was 10 years old due to my ‘eczema’ spreading to my face. Looking back, it was definitely the beginning of my TSW journey, but the medicine was able to push it under the surface for a little bit longer. 

3. How much Elidel did you use?
As per doctors orders, whenever I felt the need to. I would be prescribed bags full of Elidel and TS as the doctors saw it was covering my body in its entirety. 

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
No.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
Yes, I never used steroids on my face, only ever Elidel for many years (17 years).

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Seeing as I never used steroids on my face, my face was hit really hard.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
No.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
It’s all a Band-Aid effect. All TS and Elidel did was push my skin condition deeper into itself until it could no longer handle it and it pushed back through all the barriers to come to surface in full force.


Sunpreta (@tsw_healin)
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***Sunpreta is sharing the experience of her cousin's sister who used it at three years old (although Sunpreta is going through TSW, too). This poor child's story is not just about Elidel, but sheer medical negligence (it's honestly heartbreaking), and it shows the impact Elidel can have and why it should be avoided during TSW and in the treatment of 'eczema'.***

1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
My cousin's sister was diagnosed with eczema when she was only three months old and was prescribed Fluocinolone 0.01, and we used it as prescribed. When we look back now, her rash was actually just a diaper rash, it wasn't even eczema in the first place, but we used the creams as prescribed. When she turned one her "eczema" returned, so we went to the docs and they again sent us back with topical steroids. We used them on and off for around one year, as prescribed, and later when the creams stopped working, they gave her Clobetasol and told us to use it for two weeks, and when the rash reappeared, they told us to use Tacrolimus (Protopic). We did everything they said, but the burning whilst using Protopic would make her cry for hours. As a result, they asked us to keep it in the refrigerator and then use it until the skin was "okay" using it.

2. When did you use Elidel?
Suddenly, they told us to switch from Protopic to Elidel (we still don't know why) when she was around three years old. At this point, her body was burning red. We used the creams as prescribed, along with the Elidel, but at every monthly visit they would advise us to use more Elidel. She used it for roughly 6-7 months.

3. How much Elidel did you use?
We emptied 5 tubes and STILL have 3 sitting in our cupboard.

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
No.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
We used it just before stepping into the withdrawal process.

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Yes. We creamed her so much in Elidel that I think it made her entire withdrawal process so much longer.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
I wouldn't recommend Elidel to my worst enemy. I think Elidel is much worse than any steroid cream. Undoubtedly it made her skin clear when we first started using it, but over time, we needed to use it more and more to get the same effect until she was using it EVERYDAY.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
It was a very difficult time, and sometimes this gaslighting scares me to a point where I can't breathe. Destroying someone's health for money is too develish to be real.


18-24
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I got prescribed steroids when I was only one years old. During childhood, my eczema disappeared. Around my teenage years, I got mild eczema (only during summertime) and used steroids again. It got to a point where my skin was so bad that they put me on immunosuppressive medication (Ciclosporin). It was only a short-term solution and made everything worse. After that, I used Dupixent, but when my eyes got really bad (side effect of Dupixent), I was put on Elidel.

2. When did you use Elidel?
Last year, during the time I was on Dupixent.

3. How much Elidel did you use?
Not much more than a tube.

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
At the time I didn’t know that the thing I was experiencing was TSW (after Ciclosporin use). So looking back, I did use it during TSW.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
No.

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Definitely! The areas I applied this cream on are the worst affected to this day.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
NO!!! I would try to avoid any medication/salve possible. My experience is that all these things made things so so much worse. I even got more allergies, which resulted in tube feeds.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
I told my dermatologist about my concerns regarding steroids and her reaction was to use Elidel instead as it was SAFE to use. To this day I can’t understand what is safe about this. The only side effect, according to her, was a burning feeling when applying. The burn was so bad, especially on my eyelids. Numerous times I tried to take it off with water, but it only made it burn more. The burning should have been a warning sign. No way burning should be considered okay and not harmful. Even the best specialist in my country for eczema thinks it’s safe to use steroids and non-steroid salves and medication. This seriously needs to change.


Andrea
35-44
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***Note from Cara: Andrea's experience with Elidel is fascinating because it shows exactly what this medication is capable of on its own. Like I said above, it's difficult as so many of us have used a cocktail of different steroids and immunosuppressants so it's hard to be able to offer categorical proof that a specific drug that isn't a topical steroid can cause withdrawal symptoms, too. Andrea's experience shows that it's possible, even when Elidel is used sparingly in the short-term x***

1. When did you use Elidel?
I was prescribed Elidel at the end of October (2021) when I rushed to my dermatologist with a sign of perioral dermatitis near my mouth. I was not using any steroids so I have NO idea what triggered it. 

2. How much Elidel did you use?
I began using it sparingly on and off over the following 3 months. 

3. What has been your experience of using it?
In early Feb when I realized it was never fully working AND that it could have a withdrawal effect, I stopped cold turkey. At that point, I had the worst flare ever!! Red and painful. My skin was irritated and inflamed in all the exact areas I used the cream. 
Thankfully, in the PD support group, someone helped me realize my issue was likely demodex mites!! (Because I had spots near both eyes and it traveled). It definitely made sense. I instantly began sulfur/tea tree oil regimen and within days, my skin cleared!! I still don’t know how my PD started, but possibly the masks. Or hormones? It’s been 3 weeks and I’m still randomly seeing spots pop up, but I’m 90% better. I’m also taking oral ivermectin once a week, but next week will be my 4th and last. 

4. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
I will NeVeR, ever use Elidel again!!! 


Lacy (@lacyhough)
45-54
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
In my late teens I developed what seemed like contact dermatitis on the palms of my hands. I was a manicurist at the time so I figured it was from the chemicals I was working with. I soon had a few spots on my face as well. I went to a Dermatologist and that’s when the topical steroids began. I was 18 years old. 

2. When did you use Elidel and how much did you use?
My Elidel use didn’t begin until years later. Probably because it was new on the market as a ‘non steroidal’ treatment. Being too trusting I thought I’d give it a try on my hands. I filled the prescription but soon found out I was pregnant with my son so I held off using it or any other topical steroid. This was about 9 years ago. 
My skin flared badly all through my pregnancy. Even to the point that my obstetrician would ask why my skin was rashed. I had small wounds on my hands, arms and feet when I was delivering. After I finished nursing my son I started to dabble in applying Elidel to my hands. Because it was on my hands it for sure touched my face. I might have applied it sometimes to my upper lip but I thought I was being careful not to apply ‘too much’. I used it for about a year before TSW. 

3. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
I did not use it during TSW.

4. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
Yes I stopped it just about a month before when I ran out. 

5. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
I believe it affected my TSW in the way that it is a systemic drug. I experienced full body TSW for the first year. My entire body was covered in rash except the soles of my feet. 

6. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
If I could go back and I knew that it would’ve caused what it did, NO! 

7. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
I wish the black box warning was made clearer. I wish I would’ve been more diligent in my research as I am now. I think physicians and pharmacists should show photos of people going through TSW and have more information available when someone is prescribed steroids or non steroidal treatments for skin issues. 


35-44
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
No eczema to speak of as a child (small patch behind ear as a baby). My brother was badly affected by eczema. I was the lucky one who had no skin issues at all.
Teens: Mild rash on one arm at about 14 (it was so unusual I drew a picture of it in a diary!). Went to doctor and suspect that they gave me some mild steroid. I started the journey on steroids at that point and used the cream occasionally and when the rash appeared (not that often).
20s: Some stress triggered rashes appeared on neck / back / eyelids  – prescribed steroids. Started to go up the steroid ladder. By late 20s started to get eczema on hands which became increasingly severe. Eventually using the most potent steroid on hands (Dermovate).
30s: Hands now classed as severe eczema – no other areas really troubled me – the hands issue had been going on for a decade and increasingly not managed even with Dermovate. The only other patch (arm crease) ‘managed’ with occasional use of steroids.
By my late 30s, after getting ill in 2014 with amoebic dysentery, I started to have patches of ‘eczema’ on my face above lip and other unusual (for me) areas – e.g. legs. I was convinced it wasn’t eczema because of the delineated appearance etc, but didn’t know what it was. Neither did the doctors, and I had a plethora of tests and various courses of oral steroids as well as the usual topical steroids (different ones for different parts of my body). I was now under Guy’s Hospital and was offered, but declined, Azathioprine as I was wanting to try to conceive. Things settled slightly for a period with steroids etc. I now realise these signs were TSA. I left my full time job as a lawyer and went part time, then took a sabbatical, then finally left and started to try to build a freelance career.
Early 40s: During pregnancy, I was reluctant to use as many steroids (even though doctors said I should and that it was fine for the baby – something I have since found may not be quite as straightforward as implied). So without realising it, during pregnancy, I started to experience TSW – particularly during the third trimester. The obstetrician was shocked by the state of my hands and arms and told me to go back on Dermovate or that oral steroids were going to be needed. I reluctantly relented. The symptoms were slightly (though definitely not fully) suppressed during birth and for a few months thereafter. Things started to get worse over the first 6 months postpartum and I finally discovered the TSW community and realised my appearance and patterning was pretty much identical to many other TSW sufferers. I stopped steroids properly on 1 June 2020. 

2. When did you use Elidel?
Not sure when was the first time, but I was definitely using it in 2015. Generally during this period I would use steroids off and on to control / mitigate occasional flares or before important events. For the face flare-ups (which were a new thing for me, since late 2014) I did use Elidel – I was prescribed Pimecrolimus (Elidel) 1% “to face” Jan 2015 “as preventive max 7 weeks”. I was told to not use it if going in the sun. It seemed to have some success, but I was also prescribed steroid cream to (“sparingly”) use on the face (Clobetasone 0.05% cream) at the same time in January 2015 and (also to the face) Daktakort (2017 /18). At this time I was also being prescribed steroids for the body (Mometasone 0.1%  and Elcon and Dermovate for the hands). 

3. How much Elidel did you use?
See above – but it’s the usual story. Initial prescription limited (to, in my case, 7 weeks) but when flares came back eventually I recall it would be resumed as an option for another limited period. There were also occasions when the GPs weren’t that familiar with the medicine so I would request it and they would look it up and then prescribe. 

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
With hindsight, I exhibited signs of TSA in late 2014 – so in that sense, yes. But I didn’t knowingly totally stop steroids and commence TSW until 1 June 2020 by which point I had not used Elidel for a few years (as I had not used it when trying to conceive or when pregnant). 

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
See above. Not really – although I was using it when showing signs of TSA without realising that’s what it was. 

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
I don’t think it’s a particularly strong factor in my withdrawal given the many other steroids I was using in the run up to my official TSW start date. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
No.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
I was always quite cautious with it (partly because I didn’t, after a while, find it very helpful and partly because I didn’t like the idea of the photosensitivity issue). I would certainly have done more careful research had I been aware of TSW and been looking into these non-steroidal alternatives – I would then have come across the reports of issues with these calcineurin inhibitors. 


18-24
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I used topical steroids irregularly during teenage years, then no steroids for about 4 years after that as my eczema “disappeared”. As of 2020, I had a reaction (unknowingly) to the washing powder I was using. I used Hydrocortisone on my face & neck for 6 months until that stopped having an effect. At that point I was prescribed Elidel which I used for 6 months before discontinuing. 

2. When did you use Elidel?
Started using Elidel in April 2021 and stopped October 2021.

3. How much Elidel did you use?
Very small amounts, x2 daily for about 3 days straight, every 1-2 weeks. Application to face & neck. 

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
No. I started using Elidel on my face & neck when Hydrocortisone stopped working. I was still using steroids on other parts of my body. 

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
I stopped using Elidel 3 weeks before I stopped using all steroids. 

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Yes. Rash on my neck has spread even more during my TSW. Also have new areas of patchy, red skin on my face where I hadn’t even applied Elidel or steroids.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
Absolutely not. If I had known that it causes withdrawal then I’d have never touched it.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
I was prescribed Elidel by my dermatologist in March 2021 while at the same time on a 6 week course of Prednisolone and starting Ciclosporin. After I finished my course of Prednisolone in April 2021, the rashes started to reappear, particularly on my face & neck. At first I was reluctant to use Elidel, but I was desperate & knew I never wanted to use steroids again on my face. I followed my dermatologists advice, he told me it was completely safe and that I could use it everyday for the rest of my life. The only warning I was given was to be careful in sunlight after application as I could develop skin cancer. After just one day of application, I was amazed as by the next day the rashes were gone. As time went on, the rashes were spreading to new areas on my face. By month 5/6 of using the cream, it was getting to the point where I couldn’t even go a day without using it and was not having the same “skin clearing” effects.


SD
25-34
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I remember starting to get patches of eczema on my wrists and upper lip at around age 4 and was prescribed steroids (not sure what class but I think Betamethasone Valerate 1% or something) and used a steroid nebulizer for my asthma from 4-9ish (though I don't ever remember having any asthma attacks and I don't have asthma now). From aged 12 onwards, my eczema was barely there and I used the creams sporadically when I flared. At 16, I started Protopic and Elidel when I visited a derm and told them my concerns about steroid skin thinning etc. Around that time, I was also using Hydrocortisone 2.5% for my body. I think I dabbled in Hydrocortisone 2.5% a little bit daily to keep my eczema at bay and thought it was like a "magical vaseline". I NEVER thought about any side effects because NO DOC or DERM ever warned me about taking breaks and I even remember thinking I would be OK using it every day for the rest of my life (LOL). So I pretty much used steroids and Elidel/Protopic at least 4-5 days a week since I was 21. Then, aged 24, I started to have worsening eczema symptoms and knew something was off, and even came across TSW, but didn't think it could be me (I was probably in denial). I had a new Derm who kept on prescribing me stronger steroids (told me to use Clobestasol for a week or two) telling me I needed it and it would be completely safe for my skin, and even introduced me to Eucrisa, which I used for 3 days and hated it! Looking back, I think my TSW started in 2016, but it took me until 2019 to realize what was going on and to completely go cold turkey.

2. When did you use Elidel?
I began using Elidel in 2008/2009 ish. 

3. How much Elidel did you use?
I used it quite sparingly because it was so expensive (which I'm glad about) and between Elidel and Protopic in their 30g tubes, I would say for the 10 years that I used them, I probably went through 3 or 4 tubes total, not even! 

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
Nope.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
No, I stopped Elidel about 2 years before going into TSW and was weaning off Protopic before TSW in 2019. 

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
I do :( Unfortunately, I used mostly Elidel/Protopic on my face, and compared to others that just used steroids on their face, my face was just terrible and I had so many problems – lots of oozing, crust, flakes, pimples, and acne! 

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
EFF NO.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
I'm just disappointed in the Derms, really. I would not touch or recommend Elidel, Protopic or Eucrisa to anyone. There's not enough information on long-term side effects and its mechanism anyways. If I were to go back, and HAD to use something on my face, I would choose an OTC cortisone over Elidel/Protopic/Eucrisa (but really, I would like to have just stopped using steroids much earlier in my life).


Audrey (@Audrey.pavik)
18-24
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I had eczema, but my mom was always skeptical of topical steroids so she held off using them on me for a while till late middle school/early high school when my eczema started to get worse. I had also been getting the allergy shot since I was in elementary school up to high school. My Freshmen and Sophomore years were very stressful and that was never taken into account that stress could be causing a bad flare up, but my allergist insisted on me starting topical steroids; Desonide and Triamcinolone. My back during this time was the worst – always itchy, red, and hives. 

2. When did you use Elidel?
Around my junior year of high school my eczema was getting worse again and they were trying to get me approved for Dupixent, but because I wasn’t 18 yet, and it was a fairly new drug, I started Elidel instead.

3. How much Elidel did you use?
I used it as prescribed at first, which was to use it for two weeks then stop, and if it got worse, to use it again. I would use a little dash of Elidel on my flared up spots which were mainly my arms, wrist, thighs and behind my knees, and it would bring down the redness and itchiness a lot. In my senior year, when I noticed symptoms had moved to my neck and parts of my face, they said I could use Elidel on my face, because it’s not a steroid and they were already telling me to put a steroid around my eyes, I don’t remember the name of it. Dupixent (which I was finally prescribed) was also a huge help so I wasn’t using the Elidel as much. Unfortunately I started using Elidel again in August 2021 because I noticed my skin was getting worse. My breaking point was when Dupixent stopped working and the Elidel wasn’t working how it used to, so I went back to my allergist and they recommended Prednisone, which I took. My skin cleared up in 2 days and it was great and I was comfortable for that week, until my skin got even worse after that and so I stopped using everything – Elidel, Dupixent, the Prednisone, on January 15th because that is when I discovered TSW. 

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
No.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
I used a little bit of Elidel before TSW but it didn’t help much.

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
I’m not sure if Elidel has made my withdrawal worse. It could be everything I’ve been using for the past 6 years, but it also could’ve been my breaking point. My doctors made Elidel sound like the miracle drug because it had no steroids in it and that it was the better option.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
If I could go back, I wish I known the side effects of all these medications, but I would probably still use Elidel over the steroid creams.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
My thoughts on Elidel now is that it's just as bad as the steroid creams. Thinning of the skin was a big side effect and its crazy how doctors throw these medicines left and right knowing all of these symptoms.


Silvia (@silgonque)
35-44
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I started using steroids when I got really bad bronchitis. Got a rash after that, but never connected the two. After that, my skin was kind of sensitive (which it had never been before). Some years later, I went to an allergy doctor who pumped me full of Dexamethasone and prescribed TS and Elidel.

2. When did you use Elidel and how much Elidel did you use?
I used Elidel somewhere along the way when I was being treated by that allergy doctor. I didn’t use much – maybe a couple of tubes (compared to the amount of Dermovate I did use) but some of it was on my face.

3. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
I didn't use Elidel during TSW.

4. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
I used it right before.

5. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Yes, for the amount of time I’ve been in TSW I think it did affect it. I’m well over two years in and there doesn’t seem to be an end in sight and the itching and oozing are at an all time high.
I don’t have a lot to say about Elidel specifically because I was also using steroids at the time, so I don’t think I’ll ever be able to tell the difference between the effects of one or the other.
Something I'd also like to say is that I think it's taken me a really long time to heal because I didn't use steroids/Elidel my whole life – I started using them in my mid-twenties, I think, and stopped at thirty-three, so it's not like I'd been using steroids etc. my whole life like other people in TSW. 


Jo
45-54
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
Childhood eczema, no issues beyond the age of around 5/6. Generally atopic – allergies, hayfever etc. but not causing major issues. Mild “eczema” around eyes / nose in late 20’s/ 30’s/ 40’s (I am 48 now) treated with Hydrocortisone, but over time getting progressively stronger. I was also given topical Clindamycin & Protopic when I was living in USA. I would use sparingly & only needed occasionally. No issues until pandemic – I was using Hydrocortisone 2.5% on my face and would flare every time I stopped, so used constantly. Had a period of clear skin January 2021 and stopped Hydrocortisone, but then I started getting burning and redness, and could not even tolerate water on my face. I started getting infections, too, so I was given antibiotics & Elidel. 

2. When did you use Elidel?
I used Elidel from approximately March-Nov 2021.

3. How much Elidel did you use?
I used Elidel daily, but it didn’t really seem to make things better and I was still flaring and had red rings around my eyes – one of the main signs of a flare starting. I was also given a low dose of Doxycycline at this time. I stopped Elidel in early November and had an EXTREME flare – looked liked I’d had a serious allergic reaction. My skin was scarlet, I was swollen, and my eyes were swollen shut. Multiple courses of antibiotics were given, and a skin swab showed I had staph and an antibiotic resistant enterococcal infection (just prior to this the doctors had implied I needed counselling as there was no problem except “allergy”). This infection ended up putting me in hospital over the New Year. I was given a short course of Prednisolone, which helped for a few days, but symptoms returned, with the burning sensation & rash now spreading onto my forehead and around my hairline. I ended up back in A& E late January and went back on antibiotics for a staph infection. A skin biopsy taken also showed an eosinophilic reaction in my skin & blood, which can also be a sign of parasites. My skin also showed a high population of démodéx mites, which I think might be contributing to my symptoms as they can cause a skin reaction in high numbers (and also hair loss of eyebrows and around the scalp). I'm currently awaiting allergy tests and the doctors want to put me on oral & topical steroids again to get rid of the facial rash. I'm on my knees with it to be honest, its impact my on my life is extreme and I am in constant pain.

4. Did you use Elidel during TSW?
I used Elidel at the start of TSW.

5. Did you use Elidel just before going into TSW?
Yes.

6. Do you believe that Elidel has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
I think Elidel has made the situation much worse, I believe this is due to the immunosuppressant nature of the drug.

7. If you could go back, would you use Elidel?
I would never use it again and I feel let down by the doctors I have encountered.

8. Thoughts on Elidel and your experience of using it.
What I have experienced since using/stopping these drugs is WAY WAY worse than any of the issues I had before.


Before bringing the experiences with Elidel to a close, I wanted to share some shorter testimonials from two other incredible people in our community related to their experience of using Elidel:


I used Elidel for maybe a week, right before I went into withdrawal. My derm wouldn't give me oral steroids anymore and I was begging him for something to help me since I had just started a new job and was basically the face of the company. I remember trying it in my car on the way home from work because I was so itchy. Right after I applied it, my skin started to BURN and sweat and I had to pull over to try to wipe it off with water and whatever I had in my bag because I was crying from the heat. Obviously not the best way to apply these creams, but I was used to steroids soothing the itch and Elidel was something else. I think I managed to get another round of Prednisone from my derm after that Elidel incident and that forced me into withdrawal a week later.


Shauntaérose (@shauntaerose)
*Shauntaé has also shared her experience with Protopic (here)*
Elidel was introduced later in my life as the other creams that were prescribed throughout the years stopped working. I started using it around the same time I started using Protopic, Elocon and some other medications. The dermatologists suggested I use all these different types of creams depending on how my skin was reacting, but said just to use all of them. 
My skin at the time was what I thought was one of the worst flare ups I’d ever seen, but then I used the medication and it got better and cleared up, until I stopped using the creams and then it would flare up even worse. 
I didn’t understand at the time that this was just adding to my TSW that I am going through now. I roughly used this for 7 years. When I'd go to the dermatologists, they'd reassure me that taking all of these medications was the right thing to do. 
Elidel gave me false hope. It went on my skin smooth and didn’t burn like Protopic did. It offered a short sense of calm and healing; until my body adjusted and built resistance to it and the doctors suggested using it more frequently.
I mainly used this on my hands, arms, back, legs and neck. Family and friends swore by it and said it worked wonders for their skin, but like many other creams I'd tried in the past this was another that just added to the years and time it would take me to detox it out of my system. I wish I never used it because it just didn’t work like I was lead to believe it did.

EUCRISA (Crisaborole)

What is Eucrisa?

Eucrisa is one of the brand/trade names for the non-steroidal topical medication, Crisaborole, which is the active ingredient in Eucrisa, used in the treatment of skin conditions like eczema. If you weren't aware, active ingredients are the chemicals responsible for how/why a drug works. The active component of a drug is called the active ingredient. Eucrisa is an ointment which comes in 2% strength and is available in 60g or 100g tubes.

Eucrisa belongs to a class of drugs known as phosphodiesterase-4 (PDE-4) inhibitors. PDE-4 inhibitors are relatively new and work by suppressing the immune system, which in turn reduces inflammation. Apparently there is some confusion over how these drugs work to achieve this (dear god). There are currently three PDE-4 inhibitor drugs that have been approved for the treatment of skin or lung diseases: Crisaborole, Apremilast (used in the treatment of psoriatic arthritis) and Roflumilast (used to treat Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease *COPD* which is a chronic inflammatory lung disease).

For a little bit of background on it, Crisaborole was developed by Anacor Pharmaceuticals for the topical treatment of psoriasis. When Pfizer acquired Anacor Pharmaceuticals in 2016, the drug was touted to be the next big thing, with projected sales of $2 billion dollars a year, but the drug turned out to be not commercially successful, making 'only' $147 million in sales in 2018 and $138 million in sales in 2019.

Eucrisa was only approved by the FDA in 2016, followed by Canada in 2018, with the official website for Eucrisa (here) proudly declaring that it is 'the first FDA-approved topical prescription treatment for eczema in over a decade', followed swiftly by the well-worn statement that it is not a steroid, which has now become the unofficial international stamp of safety. 

In March 2020, Under the brand/trade name, Staquis, Crisaborole was approved for use in the European Union for people aged two years and over with 'up to 40% of their body affected by atopic dermatitis', although it was rejected by the UK's National Institute for Health and Care Excellence (NICE) over 'unreliable clinical data' (see article *here*). Saying that, Staquis, was approved by the Therapeutic Goods Administration (TGA) in Australia for the treatment of mild to moderate atopic dermatitis in patients two years of age and older.

According to the official Eucrisa (US) website, it can be used 'from nose to toes' in adults and children as young as three months old. The only place they say you can't use it is your eyes, mouth and vagina. 

The most common known side effect of Eucrisa in medical literature is listed as pain at the skin application site, which might feel like stinging or burning on the skin. Disturbing that some doctors suggest keeping Eucrisa in the fridge, which might help prevent stinging, even though the drug’s manufacturer recommends storing Eucrisa at room temperature. Rare side effects reported are allergic reactions. 

In my research, I came across this article on Medical News Today (here) on Eucrisa. Under the section, 'Long-term side effects', they discuss a clinical study which followed the long-term safety of Eucrisa for mild to moderate atopic dermatitis (AD) in adults and children aged 2 years and older, and after 48 weeks, the most commonly reported side effects included:

  • Worsening atopic dermatitis (*coughs loudly TSW*).
  • Pain in the area the ointment was applied.
  • Infection in the area the ointment was applied.

Researchers somehow concluded from these findings that Eucrisa was a safe long-term treatment option for most mild to moderate AD sufferers ...

On that note, here are some experiences from members of this beautiful community who would disagree with the researchers claims. 


Anna
25-34
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
Used steroids as a child, off and on, and was also part of eczema trials (I took part in around 3 of them), but always used them for the suggested amount of time. I was eczema free for about 5-7 years as an adult before I started using a low dosa steroid on the corners of my mouth (now, looking back, it was probably contact dermatitis and not eczema). I ended up using steroids every other day for seven years. I was in TSA and didn't know it when I started getting rashes in places I had never had them before in 2020. I also had a very bad wound on my foot that I treated with Protopic.

2. When did you use Eucrisa?
I used Eucrisa in middle of 2021 for a few months. 

3. How much Eucrisa did you use?
I only used about half a tube in only one spot: in the middle of my upper lip, right under my nose.

4. Did you use Eucrisa during TSW?
No. 

5. Did you use Eucrisa just before going into TSW?
Yes.

6. Do you believe that Eucrisa has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Absolutely. My upper lip is my problem area on my face and is continuously dry with small painful cracks in the middle right where I used the Eucrisa. Very flaky and red as well.

7. If you could go back, would you use Eucrisa?
Absolutely not. 

8. Thoughts on Eucrisa and your experience of using it.
Eucrisa burned the first month or so when applying it and I should have stopped then. I now know it can be just as damaging as steroids (in my opinion).


Woman
18-24
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I used Mometasone on my face twice in October 2021 for persistent rashes I've been having on/off the past year as moisturizers were no longer doing anything for me, about 5 days each. The first time I stopped Mometasone, I noticed my rashes were gone, but my face kept flushing and stayed red where I applied the steroid. This is when I came across RSS/TSW. The rashes appeared a week later, so I used the Mometasone for around another 5 days, hoping that was all I needed. Again, they came back so I asked for a non-steroidal option. I was prescribed Eucrisa to use with Hydrocortisone for two weeks. I only used the Eucrisa. 

2. When did you use Eucrisa?
I used Eucrisa in November 2021 for two weeks, as instructed. 

3. How much Eucrisa did you use?
The smallest amount possible. Less than a pea size for my entire face. My tube still looks untouched. 

4. Did you use Eucrisa during TSW?
I'm still not sure if I'm going through TSW or a Eucrisa withdrawal, or both. I was informed by several dermatologists that I should not have used Mometasone on my face, even though my GP who prescribed it said it was "mild" and "for the face". Although I used Mometasone  for a very short period, I think it's possible that it was too much for thin, sensitive face skin to handle. 

5. Did you use Eucrisa just before going into TSW?
See answer above.

6. Do you believe that Eucrisa has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Possibly. I believe it suppresses the symptoms, similar to a steroid since it's not a cure, just a treatment, making things worse once you come off of it.

7. If you could go back, would you use Eucrisa?
No. I wish I researched more into the withdrawal effects of these topical drugs that act like steroids. I also found out I was allergic to an ingredient in Eucrisa. I wish doctors and dermatologists did tests on me first before giving out all these prescriptions right away. 

8. Thoughts on Eucrisa and your experience of using it.
Same answer as above. Also, I noticed Eucrisa worked well on my face the first two days. After that, it did nothing and only made my face worse. I wish I'd stopped it when I saw things going downhill rather than forcing myself to stick through it for the remainder of the two weeks. 


25-34
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I used topical steroids (of different strengths ranging from OTC 1% recommended by a derm to Clobetasol) on and off from ages 6-29. The only immunosuppressant I used is Eucrisa. 

2. When did you use Eucrisa?
I was 29 when I used a total of 2 tubes of Eucrisa (probably over the course of ~2 months or less). I remember only getting it twice and it burned a lot upon application. And didn’t help reduce my “eczema” at all. 

3. How much Eucrisa did you use?
Not a lot, just used a little mainly on my worst spots such as the skin around my eyes and above my upper lip. 

4. Did you use Eucrisa during TSW?
No.

5. Did you use Eucrisa just before going into TSW?
Yes. I used it a few months before going into TSW.

6. Do you believe that Eucrisa has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
It is possible that it may have worsened and prolonged my withdrawal but not by a lot. I didn’t use a lot of it. So it might not have made a big difference but there is no way of knowing unfortunately. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Eucrisa?
No.

8. Thoughts on Eucrisa and your experience of using it.
I would not recommend using immunosuppressants of any kind. Something that burns so badly cannot possibly heal or fix anything. Suppressing symptoms with doctors’ prescriptions is what got us into TSW so I would not use it.


55+
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I used topical steroids (first Clobetasol and then, primarily, Triamcinolone) for six years from October 2014 – October 2020. I used Eucrisa from November 2020 – May 2021. I was also prescribed oral steroids (prednisone/methyl prednisone) numerous times over this time period.  

2. When did you use Eucrisa?
I used Eucrisa from November 2020 until May 2021. 

3. How much Eucrisa did you use?
Over the six-months, I used about three tubes, primarily on my legs, arms, hips and a small area on my back. 

4. Did you use Eucrisa during TSW?
Yes, now looking back, I was using Eucrisa while going through TSW, but I did not realize that I was actually going through TSW at the time. 

5. Did you use Eucrisa just before going into TSW?
No, I believe that I started to go through TSW before I started to use Eucrisa. 

6. Do you believe that Eucrisa has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?
Yes, I do believe that Eucrisa has greatly impacted my withdrawal. It has made the whole process worse in that my experience using it has led me to feel that the strong potency of this category of topical immunosuppressants causes a level of damage that seems to exceed that caused by long-term topical steroid use. Additionally, areas where I used Eucrisa healed the slowest. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Eucrisa?
If I could go back, I would absolutely not use Eucrisa. 

8. Thoughts on Eucrisa and your experience of using it.
The first thought that comes to mind is that Eucrisa is truly a dangerous drug. It made my already disastrous skin condition, declining mental health, and bleak outlook on life so bad that I did not want to live anymore.
Some background context: In 2014, I developed a small rash on my upper arms. It wasn’t really anything big; just very itchy and, probably more important to me at the time, it just didn’t look very good. I went to an allergist because I thought perhaps it was from something I was allergic to, but allergy testing did not reveal anything significant. When the rash did not improve, my allergist recommended that I see a dermatologist. The dermatologist did a skin biopsy and prescribed Clobetasol and then Triamcinolone, both of which I had never used before. That was the start of a seven-year decline into what I was told year after year was “just worsening eczema” that continued to spread over my entire body and that my condition was “incurable.” 
Over this time period, I saw more than 25 doctors, most of whom wanted to put me on one of a number of medications, such as Dupixent, cyclosporine, or hydroxychloroquine. After researching each of these drugs, I refused to go on them. I continued to use Triamcinolone ointment and, on average, was prescribed a one-pound jar four/five times per year. I should note that there were brief periods that I would stop using it because I did feel at times that steroids made my skin worse, but I was always told otherwise by doctors. They cautioned me that I could get worse if I stopped using them all together, so that scared me enough to keep using it. 
In November of 2020, when my skin was at its worst, I went to see a highly regarded New York City allergist who told me that she had many patients similar to me (diagnosed with atopic dermatitis) that were seeing good results when switching to Eucrisa. Looking back, I’m not really sure why, but I put my faith in her and decided to try it. I was just so desperate. I stopped using the topical steroid and started using Eucrisa. I saw little improvement when I started using it and the burning sensation caused by it made it dreadful to use, but I kept using it thinking that at some point I may see improvement. 
However, after six months of using Eucrisa, I had started to have a reaction to it (similar to inflamed, itchy contact dermatitis). I didn’t know what to do, so I started to use the steroid again to try to counteract the reaction, which only made things worse. I was at my lowest point and a total mess. So, in desperation, I searched “Can you be allergic to Eucrisa or Triamcinolone ointment?” That’s when I first learned that there had been many reported cases of severe allergic reactions to Eucrisa and, even more importantly, I learned about TSA/TSW for the first time.
Over the next week, I immersed myself into reading about TSA/TSW and looking at Instagram accounts of people who were documenting what they were going through. I bought your book. I watched Heba Khaled’s video (here), and I came to realize that this is what indeed had been happening to me for the last seven years. I realized that I did not have “incurable chronic eczema” or any other rare skin condition. It had become clear to me that it was actually the long-term topical steroid use, and then using Eucrisa, that had finally pushed my skin (and mental health) over the edge. I stopped using both Triamcinolone and Eucrisa in May 2021. Since then, I have not returned to any of my doctors. My attached photos show the progress that I’ve made in 10 months (above). 
I do not believe that I can say anything that’s more profound than what has already been clearly documented and eloquently described by so many brave people in the TSA/TSW community. I am just one more person, just one more voice, just one more “burden of proof” added to those who have shown evidence that TSA/TSW is real and how our lives have been so greatly impacted and forever altered by this clearly preventable iatrogenic condition. 

EUCRISA & ELIDEL

Amanda (@mandanstey)
25-34
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.
I began the use of steroids when I was very young as I was born with pretty bad eczema that persisted until I was about 12 or 13. I remember having tubs and tubes of steroid creams everywhere when I was younger, slathering them on mainly my face and hands and occasionally my body. My eczema was always worst on my face and hands though. My eczema disappeared right before high school except for my hands. This was always manageable though (with steroids although it never completely went away). The most recent ones I can remember using and sticking with were Elocon & Lyderm.
My eczema came back on my face at the end of 2019, as well as in the form of stress rashes on my torso. When a dermatologist finally diagnosed it as eczema in January of 2021, she supplied me with samples of both Elidel & Eucrisa for my face. She told me to use them both and see which one I liked better and then she'd write a prescription for one. They were so expensive, too. I used both interchangeably with neither really truly helping. They might have helped a bit with the redness and surface level inflammation, but my skin was never clear when using them. They burned so badly that I eventually just ditched them. I went through a week long withdrawal from these creams. My face was extremely swollen, hot and red. I could barely even see out of my eyes. When the swelling started to go away I was left with skin that looked like it was decaying from the inside out. I literally looked like a corpse. It didn't get as dry as it does during TSW but the inflammation was so bad it just took a bit for it to go back to normal. My eczema of course returned after the withdrawal. I told my dermatologist about it and she said it wasn't possible. I wasn't using steroids on my face at that time, just my hands. I went to my regular GP & he told me to purchase a OTC Hydrocortisone cream for my eczema and said it was fine to use everyday on my face. I also still had my stronger one (Lyderm) for my hands at this point. The OTC worked for maybe a day, but my eczema always returned. I got desperate and used Lyderm maybe twice a week for 2 months as it was really the only thing that was clearing my eczema, although it still came back. At this point I was very aware of the dangers as I was doing research, but didn't have any other options available to me at the time, and I was just listening to my dermatologist & GP. Eventually the steroids stopped working for my eczema everywhere on my body, and I threw all of my steroids creams into the garbage and expected the worst. This was April 18 of 2021. TSW began for me exactly one week later on April 24th.

2. When did you use Eucrisa & Elidel?
I used Elidel & Eucrisa interchangeably for about 2 months from December 2020 - February 2021.

3. How much Eucrisa & Elidel did you use?
I used 1 large tube of Eucrisa & 4 or 5 smaller sample tubes of Elidel.

4. Did you use Eucrisa & Elidel during TSW?
I didn't use these during TSW no.

5. Did you use Eucrisa & Elidel just before going into TSW?
I used them a couple months before going into TSW.

6. Do you believe that Eucrisa & Elidel have affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe they have?
I don't believe they've had much effect on my TSW, no, although they did have their own withdrawal symptoms that were very similar, but much less lengthy in my experience. They were probably adding to my inflammation overall as well as suppressing my immune system to make me more susceptible to TSW. But I was using a strong steroid on my face which is a highly absorbable area which I do give the most credit to in terms of TSW.

7. If you could go back, would you use Eucrisa & Elidel?
If I could go back, no, I'd never use these immunosuppressants as they didn't help at all really. But when you are desperate and only know to trust these doctors of medicine and skin ... you do it. I have since turned to a clinical nutritionist who specializes in healing eczema and I will never look back.

8. Thoughts on Eucrisa & Elidel and your experience of using them.
My thoughts on these and key components I didn't realise at the time of use is that they are simply bandaid solutions, not cures to eczema. They don't reach the root cause, and by using them we are only weakening our immune systems and clouding our judgement in determining what the actual root cause of our eczema is. They burn like hell so they're not pleasant to put on, and they're so thick and slimy. They're awful. I don't have a positive review of them at all, especially because I experienced a withdrawal.

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Thank you so much to everyone who took part in this post and shared their experiences so openly <3

Even with everything I've learned in the six and a half years that I have been talking with others in this community, and my own experience of living with chronic skin/iatrogenic conditions for over twenty-five years, it is in these posts that I have felt my last remaining vestiges of respect for the world of dermatology ebb away, and I am now left with this empty feeling of disillusionment, disappointment and despair for a field of medicine that has ended up doing more harm than good. Yes, there are good dermatologists out there, but what has disturbed me recently is the realisation that most of us go into a dermatology appointment as if we are Marie Antoinette about to meet her fate at the guillotine. Just like my other community-based posts, this post is filled with accounts of medical negligence, gaslighting, and diagnoses that beggar belief – and this isn't rare, but common. The thing that is rare is finding a dermatologist who will actually listen and support their patients. I am truly disgusted and appalled at what has been allowed to happen in dermatology. 

I have said this many times now, but I am deeply concerned with the way TSW awareness is going and I fear we aren't making progress, but just creating even more problems from the need to create more band aids that don't heal, but exacerbate symptoms, and I am very scared what we will be seeing in ten years if this approach to non-steroidal medication doesn't change. In our desperation to get people off topical steroids, we could be endangering people even more. 

I see dermatologists and eczema associations talking about this being 'such an exciting time in dermatology', but I think it couldn't be any worse, with an impending sense of doom, because this method of swapping one drug for another cannot continue as people are infallible and simply cannot withstand such potent medication for a lifetime. It has a shelf life and is a ticking time bomb waiting to explode if we don't do something about it. 

If we take a step back and look at these non-steroidal medications more closely, they have only been in circulation for twenty years – that is nothing, especially when compared with the fact that it took well over fifty years for the dangers of topical steroids to be acknowledged (and we're not completely there yet with them either ...). I pray we won't have to wait as long as that with these non-steroidal medications which don't necessarily equate to 'safe'. 

I truly hope that in future we can learn from the mistakes of the past and not add to them. The treatment of skin conditions like eczema (whatever the hell 'eczema' is ...) should be focussed around finding answers and root causes and not just creating customers for pharmaceutical companies. 

Sending love and healing,
Cara x


Other posts in the series:

Let’s Talk About: TSW & The Genitals (here)

Let’s Talk About: Eczema Herpiticum (here)

Let's Talk About: Protopic (Tacrolimus) (here)

Let's Talk About: Oral Steroids (here)

Let's Talk About: The Nipples (here)

Let's Talk About: Mould/Mold (here)

Let's Talk About: Pregnancy (here)

Let's Talk About: Protopic (Tacrolimus)


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When I say this post has been a long time coming, I mean it – about twenty years to be exact. That was when I was first introduced to this topical immunosuppressant as a young teenager. This post is by far the largest I have ever shared in my six and a half years of blogging about TSW, because a lot desperately needs to be said. But first, I want to share a disclaimer of sorts because I am not going into this with neutral feelings on Protopic, and so it is hard for me to remain objective after seeing what Protopic has done, and continues to do, to those who end up using it.

I would also like to add three additional disclaimers:

  1. I am not a medical professional and anything shared in this post should not be taken as medical advice.
  2. This post is not intended to scaremonger, but simply to share experiences and information I wish I'd known before using it. As our iatrogenic condition continues to be ignored, and those who should be compiling all this information, aren't, we have to take matters into our own hands and do it ourselves.
  3. To those who need to take some form of steroid or immunosuppressant as TSW simply isn't an option for them, please know that this post isn't meant to judge those who need to use this medication, or something similar, and if anyone is judging you, that is simply wrong. I just believe that people need to know all the facts so they can make an informed decision on what medication is right (or wrong) for them. Our community was formed because we didn't know all the side effects and suffered because of it. 

This post is broken up into sections – I want to start with some background on the drug, exactly what it is, its origins, and share some facts on it from the published information available to us at this time, then share my own experience of using it before sharing thirty other experiences from people in our beautiful skin community.   

I hope you find it informative, but read with caution as the experiences (and honestly, just learning about the background of this drug) might be triggering for some.


What is Protopic?

Protopic is an ointment which contains the active ingredient, Tacrolimus (0.1% and 0.03%). 0.1% can only be used on those over 16 years of age, whereas 0.03% can be used on children as young as two. Both by prescription only. 

***Side note: active ingredients are essentially the chemicals responsible for how/why a drug works. The active component of a drug is called the active ingredient.***

So what is this active ingredient, Tacrolimus? Tacrolimus is an immunosuppressive drug which is most commonly used to lower the risk of organ rejection. You may have heard of the links between Tacrolimus and the calcineurin inhibitor, Ciclosporin, because they share similar immunosuppressant properties, but Tacrolimus is much more potent (about 100 times more). This means that Tacrolimus is favoured in organ transplants as the risk of rejection is lower (it's also cheaper, too). Conversely, when Tacrolimus is used in Protopic, it becomes the weaker topical version of Ciclosporin. 

Tacrolimus was discovered in 1987 from the 'fermentation broth of a Japanese soil sample that contained the bacterium, Streptomyces tsukubaensis'. To be more specific, the Japanse soil sample came from Mount Tsukuba, a 877 metre mountain located near Tsukuba, Japan, so if you ever got the whole 'Protopic comes off a Japanese mountain' spiel like myself and thousands of others have, turns out it is *technically* true ... but let's also take a moment to appreciate that someone didn't just dig into the soil of a mountain and put it in a tube that we squirted onto our skin. That's what they'd like us to imagine when we're slapping it on, but the reality of this drug is something else entirely.

Tacrolimus was first approved by the US Food and Drug Administration (FDA) in 1994 for use in liver transplantation before it was approved for medical use in the European Union in 2002 for the treatment of moderate to severe atopic dermatitis. Only three years later, in March 2005, both Protopic and Elidel were given a black box warning by the FDA due to their possible cancer risk (skin and lymphoma).

Protopic is a member of a class of drugs known as topical calcineurin inhibitors. Broken down, this means that they play around with your immune system in order to reduce inflammation. There are two types: the first is Protopic (0.03% and 0.1%) and the other is Pimecrolimus (also known as Elidel, which I will be discussing in my next post, along with Eucrisa). Protopic, Elidel and Eucrisa work very similarly and, as a result, the side effects are usually very similar, too.

The general consensus is that Protopic can be used for short-term and intermittent long-term treatment of atopic dermatitis, but it should not be used continuously on a long-term basis. The current advice states that Protopic treatment should begin as soon as symptoms appear, with each affected area being treated twice a day until the skin is clear.

The most common known side effects of Protopic in medical literature are listed as (at the skin application site):

  • Stinging
  • Burning
  • Itching 

They say that these side effects are usually mild to moderate, which only last a few days and go as your skin calms down. 

Other known side effects include: acne, swollen or infected hair follicles, headache, increased sensitivity  to hot and cold temperatures, flu-like symptoms (e.g. the common cold and stuffy nose), skin tingling, upset stomach, muscle pain, swollen glands (enlarged lymph nodes), or skin infections including cold sores, chicken pox or shingles.

While you are using Protopic, you may also find that your skin flushes or feels red and hot after drinking alcohol. 

I am going to be sharing the side effects that the medical guidebooks and journals aren't printing yet – and it is yet, because as this drug becomes more widely used, as medical professionals desperately try to find something to prescribe that isn't a topical steroid, we are going to see an increase in other medication like Protopic being used that come with side effects they aren't talking about. 

So now we've got all of that out of the way, let's talk about Protopic. 


Cara 
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

After developing a rash on my wrist at 6 months old, I was diagnosed with 'Eczema' and prescribed Hydrocortisone (0.5%). After using the mild topical steroid, the small rash spread to other areas of my body. Saying that, I don't believe I developed Topical Steroid Addiction then, but I do believe that the minimal Hydrocortisone I used as a baby triggered my rash to spread. Thankfully, my mum was very cautious and I didn't really use steroids much as a child, and even though I definitely had flare-ups, it actually seemed like I'd grown out of my 'Eczema' at around 7/8 years old ... until I went to secondary school and my 'Eczema' came back badly (I believe stress was the main trigger). Around 12, I was referred to the hospital because of my skin and saw countless dermatologists there. One in particular, who is the star of my skin show, really took an interest in my health and under his 'care', that is when I believe I developed Topical Steroid Addiction (but from medication that isn't topical steroids). 

His approach was aggressive and he wanted me to use strong steroids to 'manage' my 'Eczema', but as my mum was very reluctant to use them on me, he prescribed a course of the oral steroid, Prednisone, when I was about 15. I was already using Protopic at the time (which I'd been using since late 2001 – prescribed initially by another dermatologist who was pretty insistent I used it, before the main dermatologist took over my care and increased my Protopic use) and I believe, looking back, it was a combination of the oral steroid and Protopic that I used which meant I ended up having to go through TSW. Saying that, after looking at my hospital records more closely this week, and seeing the overload of Protopic I was using leading up to taking the oral steroids at 15, it's looking more likely that Protopic is to blame. 

After I'd used Protopic for a number of years and had taken the course of oral steroids, I couldn't function at all without some kind of medication and according to my notes at the hospital I appeared to be using a cocktail of stronger topical steroids. At that point, I knew using such strong medication wasn't a good idea and I remember 'weaning' myself down until I was 'only' using Eumovate (OTC - 1%) etc twice a day, every day on my chin and hands/wrists. I don't really know why, but if I just used the medication there, I was able to control my entire body. A few years before going through TSW, I was again able to wean myself down to Hydrocortisone (OTC - 1%), using it again only on my chin and hands/wrists.

Sorry I've repeatedly put 'Eczema' in inverted commas, but I am now very skeptical that Eczema even exists and it is instead a plethora of different skin conditions, along with contact dermatitis and allergic reactions. I am pretty fed up with this one size fits all treatment approach to 'Eczema' when it should be tailored to individuals and focussed on finding reasons and triggers for the way the skin is reacting and not plasters/band aids. Going back on myself slightly, I developed the initial rash as a baby after I transferred from breast milk to cow's milk, and I have found this is very common. Why doctors can't see this link and think, 'oh, hang on a minute, maybe it's the shock to a baby's system that's causing the skin to react and not necessarily a skin condition ...' 

The current treatment of 'Eczema' needs to be thrown in the bin and we need to go back to basics and common sense. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

According to some very confusing hospital records, it appears that I was using Protopic from around 2001 to maybe 2004/2005. 

Around 13/14, when I was seen by the aforementioned dermatologist at the hospital, he was featured in a lot of newspapers about the wonder drug that is Protopic. Children and young adults in particular were having their lives transformed by this seemingly 'herbal' cream. He told my mum and I that it came off a Japanese mountain and as a girl, who had no idea this actually meant immunosuppressant with an active ingredient that is used in organ transplants, I was happy to use it. My mum was still not happy, but I don't think anyone who hasn't been to a dermatologist will understand just how worn down you can get by the gaslighting of a medical professional – there was the repeated insinuation that we weren't doing enough to help my skin. It gets to you. My mum even said at one point, 'my daughter is being bullied at school, she doesn't need to be bullied by a dermatologist'.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

After looking at my very confused notes and letters from the hospital when I was seeing the dermatologist, in October 2002 he wrote a letter to my GP that said I should use 60g a month – in August 2003, in another letter to my GP, that same dermatologist said I should use 30g a day. 

According to my notes, it seems like I used Protopic all over my body – but what the notes don't show is the reality of what I used (and my mum who was very cautious with all this immunosuppressive medication), so whilst the amount stated above looks horrifying (and simply medical negligence – who in their right mind would ever think that 30g of medication a day is acceptable?!), I don't believe I actually used as much as that ... but I can't get away from the fact that I used a hell of a lot of it over a fair few years. A lot of my notes are barely legible, chaotic and confused, and I feel like I need someone like Alan Turing to help me decipher them. I will at some point, it just takes a lot from me mentally every time I look at them. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No. To be honest, even with TSW alluding to only being a withdrawal from topical steroids, it didn't even occur to me that Protopic would be an option as I always looked at any medication which suppressed my 'Eczema' as the same thing. In a way, I feel lucky that I used Protopic so young, and briefly again in my 20s, so I knew what it was capable of. Also, by the time TSW rolled around, I was fed up with of the lot of it. Years upon desperate years of trying to manage my 'Eczema' with this stuff and I was done with it. 

It was also lucky that when I went through TSW there wasn't all this noise and information that there is now, and so for the most part I was able to trust and follow my gut.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No. After my teens, I used it again in my early twenties (maybe around 21) very briefly, but I hated the feeling of it on my skin ... the burning ... the beetroot flush after drinking, and the herbal smell that never seemed to fully sink in and go away (almost smelled like my skin had gone stale), so I switched back to using my old pal, Eumovate (OTC), before switching to Hydrocortisone (OTC - 1%), which is the topical steroid I used just before going into TSW. 

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I don't believe it has affected my withdrawal or recovery per se, but I have freckles (they are actually written in my hospital notes as lentigines - liver spots) to this day which are as a direct result of using Protopic in my teens (see photos above taken this morning). I am a redhead, so I am definitely prone to freckles and burning, but in my teens, when I was using Protopic and told to cover up, that is when I got them. Also, due to my Trichotillomania (hair pulling disorder), I have always covered my legs as a result of the marks, but regardless, I have a cluster of liver spots around my knees as if I've been worshipping the sun for years. I have identical clusters around my arm creases and on the sides of my neck, too. I used Protopic before it came with a black box warning – and now, I realise, even before it was approved for use in the EU.

Also, after speaking to a wonderful woman called Nazmi (@tsw.naz), who is part of this post, she discussed developing photosensitivity as a result of using Protopic. I have discussed before that I developed photosensitivity around 1/2 years before I eventually went through withdrawal, and I am wondering now if it wasn't the steroids that did it, and instead, my Protopic use. But we'll never know now for sure.

To end on a positive note, I am totally fine in the sun now and only get mild hives if it gets super hot over a significant period of time. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

NOT IN A MILLION YEARS ... but then again, I was a scared teenage girl who simply trusted her dermatologist, and in my twenties I was just desperate to stop using steroids and had no clue I had any other choice. I was told I had 'worsening eczema' and my only hope to 'manage' it was medication. 

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I don't think anyone who hasn't gone through something similar will understand the desperation that comes with trying to find something to 'manage' your 'Eczema'. Even after knowing that Protopic gave me liver spots when I used it in my teens, and the awful burning sensation I felt when I came into contact with water, I STILL used it again because I was desperate not to use steroids and felt like I didn't have a choice. I felt completely trapped by all this medication and stuck in a vicious cycle. People will end up using Protopic, which they know is bad for them, because we have all been put in a position that no one should ever have to be in, and so we reach for (what we think is) the lesser of other evils because we have been let down as a result of not being made aware of the dangers of medication we used for our skin. 

Last year, I was quite devastated to find out that the dermatologist I saw in my teens, around the time that I saw him, was very prominent in the development of Protopic trials and conducted research on his patients who were between the ages of 11 and 13 (I was around that age bracket at the time I saw him). There is a very large chance that i was essentially used as his unwitting guinea pig, which all starts to make sense when I look at some of the notes from the hospital at the time ... and also a memory of him taking so much blood from me at one appointment that my body felt strange and I could barely walk. Even to this day whenever I see something that is gory or makes me feel uncomfortable, I get the same feeling in my feet as I did back then.

That dermatologist is now as successful as you can probably get in the field of dermatology – respected, his own practice in an exclusive part of London, travels the world giving lectures on skin, a professor ... but as someone who has directly suffered as a result of his treatment, I cannot begin to comprehend how many other people have suffered, too, because of him. This is why I am against medical professionals financially benefitting from a specific drug because it will create bias where there should NEVER be a bias.

Saying all that, whilst I am very hurt and angry by how my dermatologist treated me, and for the part he played in me having to go through TSW, naming him is not going to get us anywhere because he is unfortunately just symptomatic of the culture in dermatology. He is ten a penny. We see it now, but due to the increase in social media dermatologist influencers and derms wanting to go viral, it's just going to get worse unless something is done, and fast. 


Heba (@tsw_atlas)
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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Topical hydrocortisone (mild, and then moderate strength) on and off for 15 years, and then switched over to Protopic on its own for 10 years. I also used nasal steroid sprays for what I thought was hay fever (which disappeared once I started TSW).

Both my parents are medical doctors, and are fully aware of how to use medications correctly – so this is not an example of ‘patient misuse/abuse of the drugs’.

2. When did you use Protopic?

I was 16 years old, my doctors took me off topical steroids after it appeared as though I had an ‘allergic reaction’ to them, or to an ingredient mixed in with them. This allergic reaction was in fact TSW, but we were unaware of it at the time.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I was told never to use it long term, but each time I went back to the doctor to check my skin, they kept prescribing more of it. This continued for 10 years until I decided myself that I didn’t want to continue taking it as my skin was getting worse between Protopic applications and I was getting lots of new and strange symptoms that I never had before. I also did not want to keep using something that had a black box warning for cancer, and I knew that for future pregnancy I would have to stop using it, so I decided to try and solve my ‘eczema’ at the root cause without these medications.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No, I actually didn’t know what TSW was until I’d been off the Protopic completely for a few months. I didn’t even know you could go through TSW after not having used topical steroids for 10 years, and only using Protopic in that time.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes, for the 10 years that I was using Protopic, I thought it was keeping my ‘eczema’ under control. However, my ‘eczema’ looked and acted very differently when I was on Protopic; I started to have issues with hypersensitivity to some fabrics and heat, I had large spreading dark patches of skin, and I got hyperhidrosis (excessive sweating). I also felt very unwell during the times that I did not apply Protopic, which were usually on the weekends.

The hyperhidrosis was getting increasingly worse in my final year of using Protopic, and completely disappeared once I stopped using it. And something else to note is that during my time in TSW away from all medications, the prescription for my eyesight improved twice, to where I now no longer need glasses (except for driving as I’m only slightly short-sighted). My optometrist was confused because she said this never happens!

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Definitely. It took me 13-18 months after stopping Protopic to see the classical TSW symptoms of widespread redness, burning, swelling and oozing. In my first year of TSW I mainly had the nerve-related issues, so I knew that something was wrong and it wasn’t just eczema. But I was still working, going to the gym, seeing my friends, travelling, socialising and attending parties. I actually thought I was quite lucky and having a mild withdrawal compared to what I’d seen in other people.

But then in my second and third year, that’s when everything erupted. I had to leave my job, I was bedbound for months, then housebound for a couple of years. I had every single TSW symptom, at full severity, and I realised I was just a very slow burner. I do believe that the lingering effects of Protopic meant that it took my body a long while to work up to the worst of my symptoms. My doctor (a consultant dermatologist) diagnosed me with Topical Steroid Withdrawal, despite not having touched topical steroids for more than a decade at that point. It’s clear that long term Protopic use resulted in a longer, more severe and slower withdrawal and recovery. I am now coming up to 4 years and 9 months into TSW, and have just recovered from a nasty winter flare at 4.5 years that caught me off guard (as I escaped the winter flare last year).

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Absolutely not.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I will point out that while I was on Protopic, I was able to finish my education, travel, live a normal life. I am happy that I had those experiences, but it disturbs me how much Protopic can make everything seem like there is no problem. I had no idea that TSW was waiting for me, especially as my original eczema was so negligible and never affected my life.

I spent the first year of withdrawal in the worst anxiety about whether or not I had cancer, as Protopic has a black box warning for causing lymphoma, and my lymph nodes were very swollen and tender. It didn’t help that I couldn’t find any information about Protopic and TSW on any websites that discussed TSW at the time, and that I only had about half the typical symptoms. I was also extremely worried about the deep hyperpigmentation, as I didn’t know whether or not it was scarring – and again, due to lack of representation on TSW websites I had to just wait and find out for myself. It was only when I started to get the more typical TSW symptoms later on that I knew it couldn’t be anything except TSW.

It scares me that it’s pushed as such a safe alternative to steroids, when I genuinely feel that it is so much worse. What is even more frightening is the fact that now TSW awareness is slowly reaching people and doctors, topical steroids are being replaced a lot quicker with Protopic and other medications – all of which have caused significant complications for the people who have used them and come with increasingly more dangerous risks and side effects.

My doctor said Protopic was extracted from bacteria in the soil of Japanese mountains, and that it can be used on the face and on babies. This made it seem as safe and natural as a clay face mask. He brushed off the black box warning for cancer as something that never happens, and was only listed for medico-legal purposes. He did not tell me that I was using a weak version of Cyclosporine, which I was shocked to find out only after I had used it for years.

He also did not tell me about the awful burning that I would experience when I first used it. I ran to wash it off in the shower, which only made the burning worse. When I told him about this, he said “yes, that can happen, but if I told you beforehand that it would sting, you probably wouldn’t have used it”. I said I wouldn’t use it again as the burning was too much, but he just told me that I needed to “push past the burn”. He said it would take about 5 days for the burning sensation to subside, and that I should continue to use it once or twice a week for ‘maintenance’, and to keep the burning at bay. If I ever had an ‘eczema flare’, he said to use it twice a day for a week or two, and then go back to the maintenance dose. Surely enough, whenever I tried to break free from using it, and then later went back to it as my skin got worse, it burned all over again. If I used it continuously as he told me to, then it didn’t burn. So I was stuck using it. I’ve since discovered that studies show the reason it burns is because it produces the same physiological response as rubbing capsaicin (the active component in chilli peppers) into your skin. No wonder the shower made it worse.

After my experience, and seeing what thousands of other people have gone through because of these medications, I see that we are living through another example of how something used in medicine will (hopefully) go on to be banned after discovering that not only was it not helping, but it was in fact worsening the original issue and adding devastating consequences of its own. Previous examples of this include things like when doctors used to prescribe “smoking fresh cigarettes to cure asthma”, thalidomide for pregnant women, and radium.

For what started out as a tiny rash as a baby, which didn’t affect me, I cannot find any reasonable explanation for why steroids and then Protopic were pushed on me as much as they were. I would gladly have lived with the original tiny rash, which I most likely would have grown out of anyway.


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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Aged 7 on Hydrocortisone. Aged 12 on Betnovate. Aged 18 on Elocon. Aged 23 on Protopic for a year. Aged 25 I started TSW. Had a 2 year break when I was 16-18 where I believe I went through TSW but the dermatologist put me back on steroids :)

2. When did you use Protopic?

For a year and a bit aged 23 when my face started getting out of control. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

Not even 1 tube – half a pea size mixed with my face moisturiser once a day for 5 days, every couple of weeks or so.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

My body where I used steroids has been 90% healed since October 2020 but my face where I used Protopic has suffered immensely and is still flaring now.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Absolutely not - I was showing TSW symptoms and my derm just didn't recognise them.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I am deeply disturbed by the effects of Protopic in hindsight - during the year I was using it I developed asthma, stomach problems, became intolerant to gluten and had severe anxiety in simple situations like meetings at work or in any situation I felt I couldn’t leave easily like the cinema or presentations. I had shingles on my face 3 times within 3 months which ultimately resulted in a serious infection. My skin barrier was ruined. If I had continued using it I would genuinely fear for the state of my health in the future. I really worry that this medication is seen as a good alternative to steroids and think much, much more research should be done on it.


Theresa (@littletheresa)
45-54

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

At age 5 I was diagnosed with eczema. I have used steroid creams on and off from 5 years old till about age 35 (30 years). I didn't use anything crazy strong and not for long periods. From ages 35-39, I didn't have to use topical creams for my eczema at all. I also was diagnosed with Crohn's disease, an autoimmune disease, at age 17 and for about 15 years I was on and off oral steroids for the autoimmune disease during flare ups from time to time. Never used Protopic at that point.

2. When did you use Protopic?

At age 39, I was having an allergic reaction to something unknown for a good few weeks on the skin around my eyes and upper lip. I went to the dermatologist who prescribed me Protopic. She said it was very safe and to use it as long as I needed to.  

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used Protopic around my eyes and upper lip for about 6-8 weeks.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

I did not use Protopic when I started TSW or during TSW (Protopic is what caused me to go into TSW).

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes, as started in #4 – I used Protopic for 6-8 weeks then fully stopped using Protopic and went into full TSW.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

YES! It CAUSED my withdrawal!

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

NOOOOOOO! Protopic changed my life for the worst and I would never ever ever ever use that poison again. I tell people in my world never to use it.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

This has been an extremely emotional experience and trauma in my life. Protopic took my life away for years. I started my withdrawal in 2012. When I started to taper down on using Protopic, the redness and rashes started spreading down to my cheeks and neck then down to my under arms. I realized that the medicine was making me worse. Before stopping Protopic fully, I posted in my autoimmune disease google support group about what was going on and someone in that group said it sounds like I have RSS/TSW and asked me if I used topical steroids or Protopic. It was my awakening moment then that I found out what was happening to me (I thank that person for pointing me in the right direction). I stopped Protopic fully and then my hellish journey began. Never in my wildest dreams did I think it was going to be as bad as it was with the withdrawal process. It was debilitating at points and I still had to work as being a single mom of two small kids, I needed to support them. My first 2 years were extremely painful and I got all the classic TSW physical symptoms - oedema, ooze, insane itch all day and all night, insomnia, facial swelling, sores, painful movements. From all these symptoms, of course I was severely depressed with suicidal thoughts. I did have a wonderful emotional support system with my family and some friends who really tried to understand what my pain was feeling like.  

My journey was about 5 years long. I do feel like my life for the first half of those 5 years was taken from me so wrongly. But after the 2-1/2 year mark, I started seeing the rainbow after the storm. It happened a millimeter each day of healing. It finally accumulated to a point that I started getting my life back. Those first 2 years I was basically in survival mode - work, taking care of my kids and house, and rest. That was it. I didn't socialize at all and hibernated as much as I could. I seriously do not know how I survived and pushed through. But I did!

Theresa now!

Unfortunately I did have a relapse and went full body TSW AGAIN after 5 years of being 99% normal beautiful baby-soft skin. I took "The Morning After Pill" (surge of hormones - progesterone) thinking it would be harmless to my body. It set me into full TSW again. It took about 2 years to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Today I am doing very well with beautiful skin. My face is the last of the healing, but doing great ... not perfect yet but almost. Last summer I was even tan. I haven't been able to be out in the sun since I started Protopic and through my hardest years of TSW.

My take away from my journey with Protopic is this: Our bodies are smart. They talk to us through symptoms. Be kind and gentle with our bodies. They do not like synthetic materials being ingested into our systems - via mouth or skin. Get to the root cause of symptoms and do NOT mask or suppress the symptoms. It made me a strong ass person for sure going through TSW. I do feel I lost those years of living, but I keep a positive spin on it ... helping spread the word with people in my world and they spread also and so on.  


Zosia (@zo_does_tsw)
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

***Note from Cara: For this first question, I have chosen to keep what Zosia sent to me in full before she answered the questions for this post as her experience, and medication use, couldn't sum up any better how Dermatology has gone horribly wrong in the treatment of skin conditions like Eczema, and why things desperately needs to change x***

I vaguely remember carrying a tub of Triamcinolone with me from late teens to early 20's, but rarely used as I was aware of them causing a rebound effect. I was prescribed the tub after a bout of contact dermatitis on my back, which went away pretty quickly.

My eczema properly came back (since childhood!) after a round of antibiotics in late 2016.  

In 2017 I went to my derm saying I didn't want steroids and was given Eucrisa, which I only ended up using a few times cause it stung SOOO bad. She then put me on Dupixent in late 2017. It worked pretty well for about 4-5 months, until it gradually stopped working to the point where I decided to quit the drug.  Soon after, my eczema came back. I was prescribed Protopic sometime in late 2018/early 2019 as I once again mentioned I didn't want to use steroid creams. I remember being told I could use it safely on my face!! So I applied it where I had the worst eczema, which at the time were my inner elbows, neck and eyelids.

Over the next year Protopic worked pretty well, although never fully made my "eczema" go away.  I remember occasionally waking up with super puffy eyelids (early indication of TSW) and blotches of red on my face, but figured it was just my eczema spreading. Unhappy with my progress, I went on a clinical trial for KHK-4083 mid 2019. It worked like magic. My skin was 90% clear and so I quit Protopic. (Little did I know I was only suppressing the TSW from coming out).

The trial ended in early 2020, and about 4 months later my eczema started creeping back ... this time to more parts of my body that never had eczema before. Out came the Protopic! I then used Protopic religiously over the next year. First, twice a week, then every couple of days, then every day. The rashes kept spreading!! Finally sometime in early 2021 my derm said "use steroid creams for two weeks, once a day" to finally "kick" the eczema out of my system. I hesitated but ended up following his instructions, as I was desperate for relief at this point. For two weeks I had great skin, but as soon as I stopped the steroids I broke out in a huge flare. The derm told me to try the 2 week protocol again, so I did it again. Maybe 2 weeks wasn't enough to "kick" the eczema out. As usual, two weeks of clear skin, fire eruption right after.  Panicking, I smeared Protopic all over my body for the next few days, with no luck. My rashes were taking over. I finally saw Heba's video (here) in Feb of 2021 and decided to quit EVERYTHING cold turkey on Valentine's Day.  

A week later I decided to do NMT and a super strict diet. My skin wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, so I decided that what I was doing was working and TSW would be a breeze. And it was a breeze (apart from a few flares that lasted a few days here and there) for the first 8 months. I gave up NMT and decided to live my life. Around October I got a typical flare ... but instead of receding after a few days, it started to spread ... ALL. over. my. body. Within the month I had red sleeves, a red upper chest and neck, and red splotches across the rest of my body. Everything was red! I quit all moisturizers in Dec of 2021 and have been in the worst flare of my TSW since. The spots I used Protopic the most (inner elbows, eyelids, neck) are suffering the greatest.  

I actually recorded my last doc visit (with arguably the "top" eczema specialist in the US, Dr. XXX XXX at XXX in NYC) and she said:

  1. TSW isn't real.
  2. Protopic is the SAFEST drug ever.
  3. I needed stronger steroids ASAP because my eczema had now moved into my bloodstream.

2. When did you use Protopic?

On and off for two, non consecutive years. The heaviest usage was in 2020.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

It started with once every week, then twice a week, then once every other day. The rashes kept spreading to the point where towards the end I felt like I was slathering it on. I think I even used it daily for a little bit. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No, I quit everything cold turkey Feb 14 2020.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes, I think it is the reason why my first major flare wasn't until month 8 of my TSW.  I think it residually suppressed the TSW from "coming out" initially. I have now been in a four month long flare from hell and my worst/ooziest spots are where I put Protopic.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

NEVER. I wouldn't give that cream to my worst enemy! Except maybe I'd recommend it to Trump.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

It works ... until it doesn't. I have also been on Dupixent, (and more recently~end of 2019~ a clinical trial drug with a similar mechanism of action to Dupixent) and I believe those drugs also delayed the onset of my first major TSW flare.


Jonathan (@tsw_jr)
25-34


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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Long term use of steroids 10+ years including Prednisolone, Cyclosporine and a lot of topical steroids. After this I was given the ‘wonder cream’ (doctor’s term) Protopic.

2. When did you use Protopic?

Started using at around 24 and used for around 6 years. I was told it was totally safe with no side effects and could be used on my face every day if required.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used it around 3 times a week for 6 years. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No. 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes. I found TSW by Google: ‘how to get off Protopic’.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes, the areas I have used Protopic seem a lot more stubborn than the non Protopic areas. For example, my face and neck are still regularly flaring 4 years into withdrawing.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

I would never use Protopic if I had known.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

When I was first given it, I could use Protopic and it would make me clear within 2 days. What I found after a short period of use is it used to remove all the life and colour from my face. It had an initial burn which could only be relieved by multiple layers of moisturisers and I would sometimes have to jump in the shower to remove the cream as the pain was too much.

Every time I stopped the cream I would go into withdrawal. I travelled to America around a year before starting TSW and my whole face was inflamed and swollen but I didn’t realise at the time I was addicted to Protopic. I am now 4 years Protopic withdrawal and struggling most days. My face is very sensitive to allergies which I never had prior to using Protopic. After speaking with Dr Sato he has seen Protopic withdrawal takes 5-7 years to get better where steroids is significantly faster.


45-54

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I started using topical steroids the 80s, which ramped up in the 90s: various strength Hydrocortisones, Eumovate, Mometasone (Elocon) cream and ointment, various Betnovate preparations. I stopped using all topical steroids in January 2019.

I used approx. 2 tubes of Protopic per year between 2014 and 2019.

2. When did you use Protopic?

Stopped using Protopic in April 2019 after approx. 5 years use.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

As above in question one and only used on face. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

Briefly, for the first 4 months.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes, for the five years leading up to going through TSW.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Definitely. My face has been absolutely the worst and has been pretty much constantly in some kind of withdrawal the whole 3 years. The line on my face follows exactly where I used Protopic. The skin above, in my hair line is so soft and clear, as are my ears, on and off. These good skin areas go into withdrawal and then heal on and off in cycles. But where I used Protopic it’s rarely healed although it does improve and regress.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

100% no.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Worse than topical steroids although I can’t prove that. The nerve pain in my face is still ongoing and wakes me at night. Imagine having stabbing pains all across your face for 3 years. It’s not constant now but it’s still hard to live with. I think it’s toxic.

***Ruth has also written 4 excellent blog posts on Protopic which can be found on her brilliant website, here: https://whatallergy.com/?s=protopic.***


Lizzie
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

As a child I was prescribed steroid creams for my eczema – the eczema was caused by allergies which I grew out of, but the ‘eczema’ never stopped, so I believe the addiction started in childhood. I used steroids on and off throughout my teenage years. When I was 24 I used the steroid Kenalog injection twice, then after this I found that I needed steroid creams more and more, until I was using a strong steroid on my body every other day, and hydrocortisone 1% on my face every day. Luckily I never got to the point where I was using strong steroids every single day, so I’m a relatively mild case of TSW (though I still go through absolute hell!).

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic in April 2021 for a month.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

At first I used a small amount of Protopic every few days and it did at first help my symptoms, then I needed to use it more and more to get the same result, so I ended up using it every day. I still only used small amounts as I’d read online that it can make symptoms worse, so I was very wary.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

I was two months into TSW when I used Protopic.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Absolutely. My skin was showing a lot of improvement before I started Protopic, then the Protopic further helped improve my symptoms. Then as I realised I was having to use it more and more to get the same results, I decided to stop using it and then my skin flared horrendously – not quite as bad as when I first stopped using steroids, but it was pretty close and I flared like this for around a month. It felt like it set my progress back by at least a month.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

If I could go back, I would absolutely not use Protopic.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

My thoughts are that Protopic is so dangerous!! Although we have a long way to go with having TSW recognised by medical professionals, at least there is some warning around the dangers of using steroids, but we don’t see this with Protopic. When the doctor prescribed me Protopic, he told me it’s safe to use on my face and around my eyes every single day for the rest of my life! At least with steroids there sometimes is a warning around not using it for a prolonged period of time, but we don’t see this with Protopic and doctors seem to be under the impression that it’s completely safe to use long term. When I was prescribed Protopic, I told the dermatologist that I’ve read accounts of literally hundreds of people online who say they became addicted to Protopic – he looked baffled and said that’s impossible as Protopic isn’t a steroid, and he told me that he knows better than them! So while we seem to be making gradual progress with steroids, there seems to be no progress with medical professionals recognising the dangers of Protopic.


Dominika (@donnaosul)
35-44 

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

No regular steroid use, my mum was a very wise woman and knew how dangerous they were (if she was still around, she would stop me from starting using Protopic, I am sure of that). I only used topical steroids on two occasions, circa 3 applications when I was a teenager. There was no medical treatment of my eczema until I turned 30. My eczema was not severe, and I just learned to live with it. At the age of 30, on advice of my partner, I went to a GP with a special interest in dermatology (I only learned that he was not even a dermatologist last year) who, without performing any tests and agreeing to allergy testing only because I insisted on it, diagnosed me with eczema and prescribed me Protopic telling me to use it for as long as it was working. He told me we would worry about other options when it stopped working. In March 2020 when my body developed a tolerance to the drug, I stopped using it and went into withdrawal (I did not know that my body was addicted to the drug and would have to go through withdrawal).

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic sparingly between September 2014 and end of March 2020.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

During the 5.5 years of using Protopic I used less than 4 tubes: 1.5 of 30 g tubes and 2 of 10 g tubes 0.1% in strength. In fact, I had to dispose of the 2 of them as they expired before they were emptied.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

I have not used Protopic during withdrawal, however another GP with a special interest in dermatology prescribed it to me despite me telling her that my body developed a tolerance to the drug.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

My withdrawal was caused by Protopic only, although I must add that I was put on oral steroids and a topical steroid 4 months into withdrawal and two more times in the last 2 years. I also had a round of oral steroids on their own one more time. NB It was May 2021 when I learned about TSW and that my symptoms reflected the condition. For clarification purposes, my Protopic withdrawal started at the end of March 2020.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Not in million years, it’s a devil’s potion.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

While I know that some people have to resort to immunosuppressants to help them survive TSW, as no research about the risk of developing TSW symptoms or worsening the symptoms is out there, I think it’s vitally important to ensure that awareness about experiences similar to mine is shared. I personally am upset with myself that despite my mum setting me for success by keeping me away from dermatologists and steroids, I did not thoroughly consider how suppressing your immune system for so long to manage mild eczema could affect me. My (and other community members’) treatment by the medical community since I/we went into withdrawal was mostly deplorable. They are uninterested, irresponsible and lack the very basic ability to listen, investigate and challenge status quo.

Dominika's experience has also been featured in a lot more detail (with some of the most shocking treatment by doctors I've ever read) on the brilliant website, www.whatallery.com (here). 

***Please note that whilst I have tagged Dominika's account, it is not a TSW account, with no photos etc***


Ilona 55+

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I used topical steroids intermittently since I was a child. In my late 20’s (when I think I became addicted to topical steroids) my eczema started spreading from my hands, behind my elbows and knees to the rest of my body including my face. I started to use TS of increasing strength more regularly and used them daily for at least 15 years.

2. When did you use Protopic, and how much Protopic did you use?

I used Protopic around my eyes and mouth daily for five years. I used all the topical medications as prescribed by my dermatologists.

3. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

4. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

I stopped using Protopic three years before fully stopping steroids. This enabled me to differentiate between the effects of Protopic and TS. While on Protopic, I had painful styes on my eyelids at least once a month. I also had cold sores around my mouth almost monthly. In my fifth year of Protopic use, my eyes started to swell so badly that half my face would swell. I went to various ophthalmologists who would prescribe combinations steroid and antibiotic eye drops and steroid creams for my eyelids to bring it under control. However soon after I finished the prescription, the swelling would return. I fortunately saw a different ophthalmologist who said he had seen this before (!) and that I was probably allergic to Protopic and I should stop using it immediately. I stopped using the Protopic that day and replaced it with TS. I immediately stopped developing styes in my eyes, the horrible eye/face swelling stopped and I have had only two cold sores in the past five years. I did not believe I was allergic to Protopic but felt I was addicted to it, so I Googled to see if that was possible and that’s when I discovered Topical Steroid Addiction and TSW. I gradually weaned off TS over the next three years and have not used any medication for my eczema in 2 years and 9 months and am still in the throes of TSW.

5. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I believe Protopic may have affected my TSW because the skin around my mouth and my eyelids are constantly flaring and the skin always looks awful, but I can’t be sure this is just because of Protopic, because I also used TS there before and after Protopic.

6. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Absolutely not because of the terrible symptoms I developed while I was on it and because I suspect it is contributing to my continuous flares and damaged skin around my eyes and mouth.


Nazmi (@tsw.naz)
18-24

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I developed eczema at 3 months old and used topical steroids of varying potencies on and off my whole life till I began TSW in December 2021. Having previously used Hydrocortisone and Eumovate (Clobetasone Butyrate), I was first prescribed Elocon (Mometasone Furoate) and Betnovate (Betamethasone Valerate and Dipropionate) when I was around 10 years old and continued to use a combination of these through the years, sometimes weaker, sometimes stronger. Before beginning Protopic I tried to use the lowest potencies on my face and neck i.e. Hydrocortisone, but did use Eumovate sometimes. 

I recall taking a week-long course of oral steroids which was probably Prednisolone for my asthma when I was around 9, but I can’t remember if it affected my skin or not either during or after. 

I was using Hydrocortisone, Eumovate (mostly) and Betnovate on most of my body from the neck down alongside Protopic on my face and neck in the year before beginning withdrawal as my TSA developed and/or worsened. I took a three-day course of Prednisolone in August 2021 when I unwittingly went into withdrawal for the first time (it was agony and I didn’t feel ready to start TSW then due to family and personal reasons). 

I have used no immunosuppressants other than Protopic. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

I was prescribed it by a dermatologist in February 2020 but didn’t start using it till July 2020. I can’t remember why I felt a nervousness to use it as I had no idea of TSA/TSW or Protopic’s side effects, but for some reason I did put it off. Maybe I had a gut feeling that it was bad news...? No idea. I used it until I began withdrawal in December 2021. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

It's hard to remember with 100% accuracy but I went through 8-10 30g tubes of 0.1% strength Protopic over the 1.5 years I used it. I remember I used it a few times (no more than five) on my hands, wrists and shoulders, but used it pretty much daily on my face and neck. In the beginning it was on small patches (eyelids, small patch on my neck) but as my TSA and addiction to Protopic worsened, so did my skin. The inflammation kept spreading and spreading, and so for the last five-ish months of use I was applying it over my entire face and most of my neck, spare a patch at the back. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes, I stopped using Protopic five days before I stopped topical steroids. 

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I believe it definitely has. With my steroid use I think me developing TSA was inevitable, but the time my skin was getting worse and worse coincides with me using Protopic; I think it’s very possible it accelerated the addiction. Also, aside from my other problem areas (hands, wrists, ankles and feet) my face and neck are definitely the areas most affected in my TSW. The skin is more fragile, damaged, dry and weeps/oozes more easily than the rest of my body.  

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

I wouldn’t touch it with a ten-foot pole. 

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Along with it potentially accelerating my TSA and making my withdrawal worse, I’ve experienced a few more horrible side effects from Protopic. 

The dermatologist who prescribed me Protopic told me absolutely nothing about it. I was concerned about the skin-thinning side effects of steroids (I was yet to learn about TSA and TSW) but he spent the appointment dismissing my concerns and telling me I was “vastly undertreating my eczema” by trying to use as weak and little as possible. Alongside high potency topical steroids, he prescribed me Protopic and my prescription said I was to use it “as and when required”. It also said I should avoid sunlight and alcohol. 

I experienced the classic burning sensation after applying that most Protopic users describe but I persisted and it subsided after a couple of weeks. Aside from that, for the first few months I was delighted at how well it seemed to clear the eczema on my eyelids and patch on my neck. If you had spoken to me about it then I would have told you it was the next best thing to a cure for eczema! However, after a while I started to realise that I couldn’t go more than a couple of days without applying it, and after that, the “eczema” began to spread even with daily application. A year later and it was all over my face and neck. 

I drank alcohol twice after starting Protopic where I flushed and felt a prickly feeling that subsided quickly. The third time I drank, which was literally ONE SIP of red wine, I went bright red and my face started burning and stinging like I’d never felt before; it felt like a thousand tiny needles stabbing my skin. It felt like a proper allergic reaction and was so scary. That was in December 2020 and I haven't tried drinking since then. 

By far the worst side effect has to be the photosensitivity. About ten or eleven months into using it I realised I had developed severe photosensitivity where I applied it. Over the following months it worsened until it reached the point where five minutes exposure on a totally cloudy day would leave me burning, red and oozing, even though I've never been sunburnt in my life before this. At the time of writing, I’m almost two months into withdrawal and this hasn’t improved. I basically have to avoid going outside during daylight and if I have to, I must cover up completely. It's honestly miserable – having to hide behind a big hat, scarf, mask etc. and clamouring to get into shade even in the Scottish winter. I even feel too anxious and afraid to have the curtains open inside my flat so I just sit in the dark most of the time. I'm also terrified each time I "burn" or have this reaction that it's increasing my risk of skin cancer as there have been cases of skin cancer linked to Protopic (as well as lymphoma by the way. WHY wasn’t I told any of this by that cursed dermatologist?!?!). 

I've seen some who used Protopic say they had to be careful of the sun but I have only ever come across one other person who developed the same severe photosensitivity, and so far it hasn't resolved for them through their withdrawal. I feel the most nervous and depressed about this symptom because I have no proof it's not permanent, unlike my other TSW symptoms which I know will resolve. I would also like to be able to drink alcohol again but that's much less of a big deal, I never drank much to begin with anyway.

I wish I had never used Protopic. If I could speak to my past self I’d tell her NEVER to put an ounce of trust in that dermatologist, stop using the steroid creams ASAP and rip up the Protopic prescription. My message to anyone considering using Protopic for eczema or TSW is simple: it’s not the answer. It won’t help and will probably hinder. You can save yourself a lot of time, stress and pain by staying away from it. I learned this the hard way and am looking at probably even longer before recovery from TSW and I may never recover from some of Protopic’s side effects. 

I believe Protopic is dangerous, moreso than steroids. Why is a cream that burns like fire used for skin? Why is a medication that comes with cancer warnings prescribed for mild eczema? Why are dermatologists saying it’s totally safe when they know there isn’t much research about its long-term effects and there are thousands of people like myself who have suffered because of it? From personal experience I’m anti-steroid when it comes to skin complaints and eczema (it’s just not worth it in my opinion) but I think steroids do have their place in medicine for other, more serious conditions. In the case of Protopic, I think it should be discontinued and never used by anyone again. I’m deeply concerned that as dermatology and other medical professionals are slowly accepting TSW and acknowledging its existence, their response is to use even stronger drugs such as Protopic and other immunosuppressants to “treat” TSW and to start eczema patients on these scarier treatments even earlier. It feels like one step forward and two steps back. 


Amy (@tsw_avt)
35-44

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Childhood eczema and steroid use from around age 8-10 until late teens. Minimal usage again until mid twenties. No eczema or skin issues until end of 2018 when I was 31. However, from 25 to 31 I used Fucidn-H (I didn't know the 'h' meant Hydrocortisone) when I had bug bites and infections while living in South East Asia. 

End of 2018 into 2019 I developed a rash on my arms and face. It was diagnosed initially by a dermatologist as contact dermatitis from the chemicals I was exposed to at work. From February 2019 until December 2019 I was prescribed various potencies of steroids from Hydrocortisone 0.1% to Protopic and Elidel. In that same time frame I had to take time off work & saw 4 dermatologists, 2 GPs, allergists, & immunologists. 8 different topical steroids and 2 topical immunosuppressants & lots of sick leave.

In 2019 the rash started on my face and arms but over time moved to my neck, chest, and upper back. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

Minimally for 6 weeks in November/December 2019.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

Not much! I barely used half a tube..! However, I had 2 tubes of Elidel given around the same time. One is completely unopened, the other is minimally used. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No. I stopped Protopic a month before stopping steroids. 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes. The 2 months directly before I started TSW.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes I do, greatly! The spots I used Protopic are much harder to heal and are taking longer. For example, my inner elbow had steroids my whole life and this spot is healed, only affected if I have a big flare up and is still minimally affected. My face never had steroids on it until 2019 and then was always minimal as I was scared of their capabilities. Because of the Protopic I used (it's not a steroid after all *insert TSW knowledge eye-roll here*) my face is a mess and the most affected overall for my TSW.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Hell to the no. It is the devils piss, created by the spawn of Satan himself. 

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Regret. Immense regret. Wish I had never touched the stuff. 

My partner also used my Protopic 3x. No more than a pinky tip amount for his eyebrows. He also experienced a small withdrawal after this. I remember laughing at him because he looked like he had gone and had his eyebrows waxed – that is how the redness showed up around his brows for a short time. Over two years later and he still has very flaky brows.


25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I’ve used mild steroids since my mid-teens and gradually they stopped being effective and I needed a stronger dose. I first got offered Protopic when I had a course of Roaccutane at 22 – I was worried the Roaccutane would affect my eczema so the derm gave me Protopic (I used it once and it burned so ditched it). Bizarrely, the Roaccutane made me very dry when I was on it but my skin was eczema and acne free for 2 years after and I had amazing clear skin. When I was 25, the Eczema crept back in when I had a stressful period in my life and I was given Protopic and Dermovate to alternate.

During the year I was on Dermovate and Protopic, I went back and forth to my GP and kept asking to see a dermatologist, only to be told no it was just eczema and I had to live with it. In the end I went privately, then got put back into the NHS by my dermatologist. They took one look at me and could see the medications weren’t working and I needed help. I completely stopped all steroid and Protopic use and started Methotrexate. I was on it for 6 weeks but reacted badly to it so I was then put on Cyclosporine and it gave me a break when I was on the strongest dose. I was on Cyclo for 9 months. The steroid withdrawal came back after, but not as badly as before. Although, there was one month when I had to move back in with my parents for 2 weeks as I needed around the clock care. It was like my body went into hardcore healing. I was like a snake shedding its skin. I’ve never seen anything like it when the skin starts peeling and flaking off. There was so much!

Unfortunately, at Christmas (3 months post cyclo) I ended up with very severe infections to the point I was nearly hospitalised. I think I would have been had it not been Christmas and staff shortages. My swabs came back showing staphylococcus and streptococcus but eczema herpeticum was also questioned although that swab was negative. I think it was so bad because my immune system was weakened from my body fighting so much and also the immunosuppressants.

2. When did you use Protopic?

I was given Protopic and Dermovate to alternate for a year at 25. Again the Protopic burnt terribly. I had a week of sleepless nights, but persevered and to begin with it actually cleared up my eczema. I ended up yo-yoing between Protopic and Dermovate as recommended by my gp at the time. I knew it wasn’t sustainable and was really scared of the long term effects. Every time I tried to stop, my next flare was so much worse! This went on for a year.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used Protopic on my face and arms. I went through several tubes at 1% strength. The GP kept prescribing me the lowest dose yet the pharmacist never had it in so always gave me the stronger stuff. Every time I told the GP, they didn’t understand what I was saying. In hindsight, this was complete negligence and dangerous. A pharmacist shouldn’t change your prescription.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

Yes, I think my body was going through TSA and TSW the year I was prescribed Protopic and Dermovate as the Eczema got worse and worse and spread all over my body. I couldn’t regulate my temperature anymore. I’d be visiting someone and pop to the loo and look in the mirror and my face would be peeling/ flaking so much it looked like I’d had a chemical peel. Even though I’d moisturised within the last hour. That was scary! 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Definitely, but without medical evidence it’s so hard to say for definite. Anything that burns your skin so much surely has to have long term effects though. 

Laura now! 
Whilst she says she is not there 
yet, she is able to enjoy life 
without worrying so much.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Definitely not! In hindsight, I needed stronger emollients and ointments. I didn’t understand how the skin barrier worked so didn’t use thick enough creams when I was younger. I also needed to understand and be able to manage my allergies better as my eczema is a mix of contact dermatitis and atopic dermatitis.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I feel there needs to be more understanding of the long term impact of Protopic. If I could go back in time, I’d ask the GP and dermatologist who gave me it if they’d used it themselves and actually understood how painful the burning was. There needs to be more education about how to look after our own skin, not just blanket one size fits all short term plasters. They mask the problem. Every eczema/psoriasis/acne patient should have a diary to keep track of what is going on and work with their GP/dermatologist to holistically manage their condition. We are all so different and there are multiple reasons our skin reacts and that is how I feel things need to be treated going forward. Protopic and topical steroids just mask problems and make them worse.


Héléna (@eczessentiel.fr)
35-44

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Born in 1984. Started to have asthmatic bronchitis at 2, treated with steroids. Eczema appeared at 3, treated with various creams and topical steroids. All went away after 1988. From 5 to 13 years old, I was eczema free, then at 14, I started to have allergies and my eczema came back; I remember that I started using topical steroids almost immediately. Each time I had a patch on my face, I would use it and it went like that until I had a huge and painful flare in 2020 when I was 36. At the time I was 2 months postpartum, and I think hormones might have played a part, too.

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic when I was 23 as Locoid wasn't working anymore – my aunt told me about "this amazing dermatologist" who prescribed me Protopic. He did warn me about the treatment and that I couldn't use it for long. I didn't take his advice and realised how dangerous Protopic could be. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I don't remember the prescription, the duration etc, just that it worked, and once my eczema came back, I started using Protopic like I was using Locoid. I'm not 100% sure how long I used it for, but after no more than 3 months use, I started to get small yellow spots on my eyelid. They were itchy, too, and when I had an appointment with my allergist, he said it looked like I had Herpetic Conjunctivitis, but wanted it confirmed by an ophthalmologist. Due to the urgency of the condition, with the potential to go blind, he told me to ask for an emergency appointment. I phoned and booked an appointment for the following week, but when my allergist found out when the appointment was, he literally took my hand and brought me to the ophthalmologist's office down the street where I ended up getting confirmation of the diagnosis and started a one month treatment for herpes. The allergist I saw was very critical of Protopic and because of him, he probably saved my eyesight. 

When I stopped using Protopic, I went back to Locoid, and also used oral steroids, when my eczema and allergies were hard to manage, until my pregnancy and big flare in 2020. After my flare, I went straight back to topical steroids (this was all my general practitioner and dermatologist could do, of course ...). I already knew about TSW, thanks to Facebook, but I wasn't ready go go through withdrawal then, and so I waited until I set up my eShop so I wouldn't have to see a lot of people. I've been steroid/immunosuppressant free since September last year and I've still not had a flare. Was it just acute eczema? Am I going to suffer later? I don't know. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No.

6. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Absolutely not.

7. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I couldn't imagine back then that a cream could hurt you that much. That an authorised medicine could be on a blacklist. I think it was an excessive decision to put me on Protopic for patches on my face and neck. It was ugly, it was itchy, but I was fine. Healthy. 

Knowing now about all its side effects, I think Protopic should be banned. My allergist also made a report to the health authorities).


Jessi (@_jessi._11)
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Elocon 13 years. Protopic 13 years. Course of Prednisone 5 times over 10 years. Less potent steroid creams 10 years prior. Methotrexate for 6 months in my early 20s (which I realise now was TSW symptoms I was suppressing and not ‘severe eczema’). 

2. When did you use Protopic?

I started using Protopic when I was 16 (around 2007 - stopped 2020).

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I can't remember the number of tubes I’ve gone through, I’ve gone through a handful and was only using on my face.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No, I gave up all the medication provided to me by the doctors and went cold turkey. 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes, the areas I used Protopic are taking A LOT longer to heal and flare up more – so much more unpredictable.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Hell no, during the worst of my TSW symptoms my dermatologist told me to lather it on my face like cream!! Unbelievable.  

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I never experienced burning symptoms when applying the creams, but I used to experience burning and stinging (like a flare) on the areas I would apply Protopic, which would calm down in the morning after applying the cream to the area the night before, but essentially, I thought the creams were helping the burning/stinging sensation. The areas on my face where I used Protopic are taking so much longer to heal. It's constantly flaring or dry and flakey – haven’t really had much of a break – makes me question whether those areas will ever heal 100%. I would not recommend Protopic to anyone – it should be avoided at all costs. For years I thought the cream wasn’t doing any harm as it appeared to be ‘working’ until it suddenly didn’t. Took years to see the side effects. 


35-44

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

My usage was sporadic but long – 40 years. Topical steroids – every strength, Protopic, asthma inhalers, eye drops, and 1x injection from a sports injury.

2. When did you use Protopic?

I started using Protopic in 2016.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used it for four years, only during the summers on my neck.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW? 

No. 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No. 

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes, it has affected me, and the symptoms were worse. But I also think by the time you were prescribed Protopic, those were the most recalcitrant areas so it could have been a compounding effect of using too much TS over time and a potent immunosuppressant. I don't think this point has been made enough in our community. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

No, I would not use it, but I wouldn’t have believed in TSW, so I have no regrets using it. For me, I had no side effect at any point, so it was an effective way to ‘control’ eczema.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I wish I had side effects so I could have stopped it earlier. I am concerned about how much Tacrolimus has been pushed as an acceptable alternative when it has a cancer risk. There have been 297 fatalities between 1994-2021 in the UK. The majority (156, ie, 52%) of them classified under “Death and Sudden Death”. See Yellow Card Interactive Drug Analysis Profile here: https://info.mhra.gov.uk/drug-analysis-profiles/dap.html?drug=./UK_EXTERNAL/NONCOMBINED/UK_NON_000662566342.zip&agency=MHRA. Had I seen this statistic, I would have reconsidered using it but I was not warned of anything by the dermatologist.

I don’t think the question is about using/not using Protopic. If you are in TSW yourself now, I think the fundamental question is, are you relying on something external to you, to rescue you? Are you looking for this and that, buying/trying everything anyone recommends? I think we are in this living nightmare because we’ve relied on everything but ourselves. TSW could be a time spent to look deep within and marvel at how our body can better fix itself without our interference. The body is constantly aiming for homeostasis. Trusting our body is important and having the right mental outlook.


Isabel (@izzibees)
18-24

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Used mild Hydrocortisone since I was a young child only on inner elbow. Managed with this until I was 18 when eczema began spreading. Was prescribed higher dosage of cortisone cream for my body and Elidel for my eyelids. Eczema went away. At 20, ‘eczema’ spreading uncontrollably, prescribed Protopic and Eumovate. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

August - September 2020.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

Enough to cover my arms and legs, neck and face, twice a day. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

Yes, but was unaware I had TSW, thought I was treating severe eczema. Had stopped using steroids earlier that summer as they weren’t working. Stopped Protopic when I learned about topical steroid and Protopic Withdrawal. Protopic had stopped working, too, so was experiencing some form of addiction to that as well.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I believe it has affected my healing time during my withdrawal, especially on the thinner areas of skin where Protopic was deemed to be “safer” than steroids e.g. face, neck and hands. Although I used both steroids and Protopic on my body, my body is nicely healed in under a year, about 90%, while those 3 areas are only slowly starting to recover at 13 months TSW.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Absolutely not. 

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Protopic was prescribed to me by my GP when I told them my Elidel ran out (another immunosuppressant). The first night I put it on, it felt like hundreds of fire ants were crawling under my skin, it was unbearable. Upon research I found out this was “normal” and would subside after a few applications, but at the time I was willing to go through any pain to get clear skin, and it worked, until the eczema came back after a couple of days of not using the cream. This is what finally gave me the push to accept my fate and go through withdrawal. I was told Protopic and Elidel were safe for the face, while steroids weren’t. Unfortunately the areas I used Protopic are taking longer to heal than where I used steroids. (Btw I only used Protopic for a couple of months and my face is still very damaged after a year of withdrawal).


Steffie
35-44

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

In the beginning of 2021 I started to have a really red and irritated neck. Also my forehead and eyelids were irritated. I have had eczema all my life, on and off. I used to go to a chinese doctor who had helped me in the past with chinese herbal medicine and acupressure. On and off I would only use the herbal medicine when it got worse, but now it didn’t seem to help. I then remembered a fellow student in the past years ago who was talking about Protopic and had positive results. It also isn’t a steroid, so I thought it was safe. I went to a dermatologist and she confirmed it was safe to use even on my face. She warned it would burn the first couple of applications and that I couldn’t drink any alcohol because you could turn really red, and I should be cautious with being in the sun because of the chance of skin cancer. I was willing to take this miracle ointment because I trusted her.

2. When did you use Protopic?

July till September 2021 (3 months). After my holiday in September, I decided to stop because while using it I would get bumpy skin and dry patches on places I never had eczema before. That didn’t feel right.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

As adviced twice a day. Later on, once a day, and then on and off again twice a day etc. Sometimes a week with no usage.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

I already experienced TSW symptoms whilst I was using Protopic, which was already after 2 months of usage when I had my follow-up appointment at the dermatologist. She said it was part of the eczema cycle, but my gut feeling was that this was something different. She suggested light therapy instead. 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes, I used it in the last week of September, because I wanted no skin issues on my holiday. But I remember I used it on my back because it was really dry, a place where I never had eczema before. 

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I have only used Protopic, no other topical steroids. So it definitely affected my withdrawal. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

NO NO NO NO NO! I really regret going to the dermatologist and blame myself very much for it. I can’t believe how easy it was to get this dangerous medicine. It is not even a medicine, it just makes things worse!

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I wouldn’t recommend Protopic to anyone, this ointment should be forbidden!

Every time I used it (again after a while) it burnt my skin. And sometimes, while on Protopic, the skin on my face was so flat of colour, all natural redness was gone. It didn’t feel natural at all even though it was the skin I wished I always had because it was so flawless.

Now, in my 5th month of TSW I have experienced the worst withdrawal symptoms. During my wintersport holiday, the air was so dry and I took 2 baths, which might have worsened my symptoms. I went from red skin and dry skin to excessive shedding every day. Also the red skin tends to grow down my torso to my legs. The affected skin is damp hot while my body is shivering from the cold which is really annoying. The amount of skin flakes I shed every morning is really disturbing and gives me anxiety. Physically I am a wreck, falling apart, and mentally and emotionally it is a rollercoaster, too. I feel sadness, regret, anxiety, anger, ugly, not myself, gross, pain, depressed, low in energy, hot/cold and how could I forget itchy.


25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Age 0-16 different kinds of steroids increasing in potency. Age 16-25 immunosuppressants (Elidel and Protopic, but mostly Protopic).

2. When did you use Protopic?

I started using Protopic when I was 16 (when the steroids stopped working) and used it until I was 25. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used Protopic daily; 2-3 times daily on my face, neck, hands and arms. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

Without knowing, I started TSW at the age of 16 when I switched from steroids to immunosuppressants (I did not have any TSW symptoms) however my true TSW journey (and symptoms) started when I stopped using Protopic at age 25.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I believe that I would have gone through TSW at the age of 16 and been done many years ago. I believe that I would not suffer today if I did not use Protopic. Moreover, I believe that the “true” TSW I am going through now will take longer due to Protopic.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

If I could go back I would never use Protopic. However, it felt like a magical cream at the age of 16 when looks mattered so much, but I regret it now.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

When using Protopic, it felt great that I finally got something that could hide my “eczema” (which was actually the start of TSW - red patches on my face and neck). I remember that I was thanking my dermatologist for giving me something that worked. I did not have any TSW symptoms for the 9 years I used Protopic. When I stopped using Protopic after 9 years, I had almost all the TSW symptoms which is nothing like the small red patches at 16. Protopic definitely prolonged my healing! 


35-44

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I've had eczema my whole life. My mum was very careful and preferred to use more natural products on me, but as I got older, and wanted the eczema to go away quickly, I went to my doctors who gave me a mild steroid. My aunt then took me to a Chinese doctor who prescribed me this little white cream, which I now realise must have contained steroids because when the Chinese doctor closed down and stopped selling the cream, my skin went (unknowingly at the time) into withdrawal. I then went back to the doctor who prescribed me stronger and stronger steroids (this was from the age of 14). I am now in my thirties. I used Protopic for just 2 weeks at the beginning of January 2022. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

During TSW. After a bad flare where I was signed off work in January 2022, I went to my GP and was prescribed Protopic. They told me it was 'non-steroidal' and safe to use – I had already told her about TSW and not wanting to use steroids again because of their addictive properties. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I only used it about five to ten times over a two week period in January 2022, mainly on my wrists. 

4. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I have found my wrist is worse where I used it and healing is slower there than the rest of my skin, but luckily for me, I was always wary of using Protopic as it looked very similar to steroid creams. I then spoke my cousin who said that if I was concerned, I shouldn't use it because I had come so far, and after I saw someone's TSW page where they were talking about it being addictive and just like steroids, I threw it in the bin. 

5. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

No. 

6. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I’m disappointed in my GP as I feel she lied to me and betrayed my trust. Yes it isn’t a steroid cream, but it’s still something that can cause your skin to become addicted.


Caterina
35-44

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I used topical steroids (Elocon/Mometasone) occasionally for 20 years. I used maybe a tube a year or so.

2. When did you use Protopic?

In 2020 for around 10 months.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used it once or twice a week. I had 2 tubes with different potencies and haven’t finished either of them.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

Yes.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No. I stopped using steroids and got signs of TSW, so I was prescribed Protopic for my “worsening eczema”.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I think it might have prolonged my withdrawal. I haven’t used steroids for the past 2 years and had a little use of them in the pas, but I still have some areas that aren’t healed and they are exactly the areas I used Protopic on.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

No. I could have saved myself so much suffering and would probably be done with TSW by now.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I was using a tiny bit of steroids for 20 years, but not every day, as I had only occasional signs of eczema. In 2020 I stopped using steroids because I got perioral dermatitis. So my “eczema” got worse (now I think it was the beginning of TSW) and I was prescribed Protopic. It was burning and itching at the same time, so much that I almost couldn’t sleep, work or concentrate on anything. I was just crying the whole day after applying it, waiting for the burning to stop. My dermatologist told me I needed to use more of it (after that I never went back to her). It was the only cure that I had so I was suffering but continued using it.

One day I got a horrible bumpy rash on my face and neck, so I stopped using Protopic and went into full TSW. Now, after one year of stopping Protopic and two years from stopping the steroids, the only areas that are not healed are the ones I applied Protopic on … My skin cycles from red to flaky every day and I don’t know when it’s going to end. I guess it’s Protopic Withdrawal. I didn’t know anything about Protopic and it was presented to me as a safe alternative to steroids. I complained to my dermatologist about the insane burning and she told me “You need more Protopic”. An alternative for her would be steroids that caused Perioral Dermatitis which she was trying to cure me from …

I think it’s a shame that Protopic is still prescribed as a safe drug, considering all the patients’ complaints about burning and the damage it does to the skin, not to mention the black box warning.


25-34 

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Pre-TSW I used steroid creams and Protopic for around 2 years consistently. The steroids gradually increased in strength but the most used most probably was Elocon, and then Dermovate. The Protopic stayed at the 0.1% strength.

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic from June 2016 - August 2018. Usually whenever I had any redness, mostly on the face.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I would use it in short courses, usually every fortnight for the recurring rashes/redness I had from RSS/steroid addiction.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

I stopped using Protopic and steroid creams at the same time, then a few weeks later, moisturisers. I've used no immunosuppressants or medicines during TSW.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

I did use Protopic just before going into TSW, probably within 2 weeks of starting it.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I believe Protopic has vastly affected my withdrawal, I actually have a theory that my purely steroid withdrawal was/would have been around 8 months. My body has been 90%+ healed since then, and only my face and a few patches that I used Protopic on have remained an issue 3 years on.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Like most, if I could go back I definitely would not have used Protopic at all.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Personally, from my perspective, people should be as wary or moreso of Protopic than steroids. In addition to lingering TSW symptoms it's given me extreme sensitivity to the sun and prolonged my withdrawal much longer than it could have been. I actually did not suffer the burning sensation when using it, therefore I may have been quicker to reach for it and use it on my face regularly.


Dee (@tsw_dee)
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

My mum started using Hydrocortisone on me as directed by my GP when I started nursery (my main trigger has always been stress). Initially I just had a few red, small, itchy patches on my inner elbows. This eventually spread to my hands, wrists, chest, neck and face. The doctor would move me onto stronger topical steroids every few years. When I was 18, my usual routine included using Hydrocortisone, Elocon and Eumovate on my face, neck, hands and wrists every few days.

2. When did you use Protopic?

When I started uni (18 y/o), steroids became way less effective at calming my skin, so Protopic was prescribed. I hated using it so only tried it for around 3-6 months. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I was told I could use as much Protopic as I wanted, and that it would help where steroids didn't, so I would use it like a moisturiser on my face. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

I still used steroids alongside Protopic, but looking back, I had symptoms of Topical Steroid Addiction since I was about 13 or 14.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No, I still used steroids (mainly Elocon, almost daily at this point) on my face and hands for about 6 years before TSW.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes. I mainly used Protopic on my face. When I went into TSW, my inner elbows, hands and wrists flared massively after a few days of not using steroids (I hadn’t even used steroids regularly on my inner elbows for years). However, my face took about 5 months to flare properly. I feel like my Protopic usage temporarily suppressed the skin on my face from going into full blown withdrawal flares.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

No. I only used it because my dermatologist convinced me it would really help, and was better than using steroids. I was also told there were no side effects from using Protopic. I never felt like it actually helped my skin. Occasionally it would look less red after an hour or two of applying, but my skin still felt really sensitive.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Left - Dee's arm one month into TSW.
Right - Dee's arm recently!

The main thing I remember is the intense burning feeling after covering my face in Protopic. I would scrape all my hair off my face as the slightest feeling of something touching my face after applying Protopic would make me itch uncontrollably. If I (or anything) touched my face I would scratch until I had scraped all the cream off, and then have to wash my face, reapply, and try again. I’d usually sit next to an open window for an hour or so to let it soak in, as cold air was the only thing that helped with the burning. 

Overall; not a nice experience, and at best, it would make my skin feel a little less sensitive and look a bit more calm for a day or two.

I know everyone is different, and if it works for someone else then great, but in my experience it’s just another attempt at a “quick fix”. 

Also, I wish I’d been told about the risks and side effects before usage. I was prescribed it when I was at uni and over summer time. I wasn’t made aware of the risks of drinking alcohol or being in sunlight whilst using Protopic.


25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

2009: Age 14, I was treated for eczema on my eyelids with Locapred (topical steroid). It worked well, but then in 2015 – a very stressful year for me on many levels – I had a small eczema patch on a finger on my right hand. I treated my hand eczema with Locoid (topical steroid).

2017: The eczema spread on both hands and I had a few patches on my neck+face. I was treated with Diprosone (high potency topical steroid) for body parts and Protopic (here it comes) for the face, alternating with Tridesonit (other name for it: Desonide, a topical steroid).

2019: Things are worse. I start having a red sore area on my upper lip, red around the eyes as well.

I am prescribed Takrozem (Protopic) again. I don't use much cortisone then, only "when i need it".

2020: I get unusual red patches on my face near the eye area.

April 2021: I get severe red patches around the eyes and that's when I discover TSW. I put cortisone on it for a few weeks then go blank and start my TSW on May 11th.

2. When did you use Protopic?

From June 2017 to end of 2020 (3y).

3. How much Protopic did you use?

3 tubes, one per year really.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No I stopped using Protopic around the end of 2020/early 2021, so a few months before, as I just couldn't bear the burning, itching sensation it gave me. 

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Now that I think of it, my eczema was getting worse just with cortisone, but it's when I started using Protopic that I started to have more and more patches near my face, and more often, more red.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

A big NO! It was given to me as the only option to stop cortisone, but if only I'd known then I could have started TSW. 

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

14.01.22: 8 months into TSW
and Anna has seen so
much progress!
I remember the day I was prescribed Protopic I was in despair about still having eczema, which was spreading despite the cortisone I was putting on. My skin was thinning, it was more cracked in winter, and I just wanted a way OUT. 

I decided to see a new dermatologist and after two meetings he prescribed Protopic. He was careful when prescribing it, saying it was a bit experimental if I recall correctly. But the thing is it was reallyy efficient despite the (horrible) burning pain! Like in one night POUF! no eczema. So it did enable me to have a good life for a few years, I would just patch it up with cortisone or Protopic ... but then it just got harder and harder to put on and it was painful, like the burning sensation was still with you even the day after.

I started to be more sensitive/allergic to things, just washing my hands was painful. So now I don't know if my TSW is actually a Protopic Withdrawal – probably is!! I haven't seen the doctor who prescribed it to me and maybe I will just to let him know how it all went to (TSW) hell.. 

On a more positive note I am now 9 months into TSW and I see more and more progress!


Matilda
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I used steroids from time to time (not often at all) for 6-7 years for small patches of eczema/dry skin. I then got TSA after using more steroids after an eye infection. I used a lot for a year, before finding out about TSW and stopping completely. I was also prescribed Protopic during this time, used it a few times. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic when my ”eczema” got worse and I was desperate.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

Not much – from what I can recall on my chest, neck and back? Maybe face also. A few times. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

I did not use Protopic during TSW.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

I used it a few months before discovering what TSW was. 

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I think it has prolonged my TSW and made it worse, since I’ve been in TSW longer compared to people who only used steroids. Also, I think it made me swell up more than others in TSW, my face was SO swollen and my eyes swollen shut in the beginning of TSW.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

I would NEVER have used Protopic if I could go back. 

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Avoid at all costs! First of all it was really expensive, second of all it was superscary to use. After I put it on the skin it felt like my skin was burning. This was in the middle of the winter so it was cold outside, so I tried to go outside to cool down, but nothing would help the burning. Felt like my skin was on fire. It really didn’t work either, the redness just spread to my back. And it was so weird because I was so cold in places where I didn’t put it on. My feet were freezing. I think Protopic is why my TSW has been going on for so long, it just breaks down the skin's ability to function.


Michelle-Li (@eczema_warrior)
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

- Childhood use of topical steroids like Elocon.

- 1-2 years of Protopic use at age 17.

- 8 months of topical steroid use unknowingly (disguised as herbal cream).

2. When did you use Protopic?

When I was 17 (I’m 30).

3. How much Protopic did you use?

1-2 tubes.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

No.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes, my TSW was the worst on my face which was the only area I applied Protopic. I had raw patches that oozed and they were hard to heal. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Absolutely not. 

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

It’s marketed by doctors as a steroid alternative. They assure you it’s safe to use long-term but ultimately, the withdrawal is similar. Why does it burn when applied on the skin? Are the side effects worth the red rash?


35-44

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Before TSW, I used topical steroids only occasionally and very carefully throughout childhood. As a teenager, I stopped as I figured the symptoms correlated with stress and I could actually manage that with daily exercise and dance, with the latter later turning into yoga and meditation. I also noticed that the skin didn’t like fried foods, which are inflammatory. So I just paid extra attention to having a super healthy vegetarian diet, which my skin loved and made me feel great. Imagine a lot of colorful veggies and fruits everyday, healthy oils, and otherwise a good balance. Sure, I flared on and off, but it usually went away with one or the other tweak. The flares functioned like a barometer for stress and nutrition, so they were quite informative.

During my early thirties, I developed a tiny rash where the glasses touch the nose. That was ultimately treated with topical steroids, which did not seem to help much, so I used it for a bit as prescribed, then stopped. It just stayed there and at some point, started to grow until my entire face was swollen and flaky. I think that also the body was affected, but was that TSW already? I don’t know and doubt it. But at some point in 2016, I got transferred to a dermatologist who immediately prescribed a cocktail of Prednisone, Protopic for the face, antibiotic and anti-fungal pills, and topical steroids for my arms. Things got better but from then on, it was really hard to keep the balance and microbiome happy, so I got more rounds of oral steroids and was eventually asked to use Protopic for life – because it was safe, supposedly. Now I am wondering if the initial tiny rash I had was fungal, and the anti fungal drugs helped, and I didn't need the other medication, but who knows – I got so many meds at the same time!

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic between late 2016 and early 2019. When I was first prescribed it in 2016, I am pretty sure that the dermatologist only told me to use it on my eyelids, but, later on, he told me to increase the area on which I should use it as the redness upon stopping had started to spread. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

At one point, I used it (almost) daily and I think twice a day, but am not 100% sure anymore. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

The moment I started TSW was also the moment I stopped using Protopic. 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes, I used Protopic just before going into TSW.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Although dermatologists think Protopic is safe, I would bet it affected my withdrawal. Why? When I used it, it worked like magic with almost immediate effect. No burning. Only a lovely face. But as soon as I reduced the amount or tried to stop, the area on which I had used it turned bright red. When I told my dermatologist, he said, well, then you have to apply it on those areas again. The next time I tried to wean off, the area that was bright red was bigger. Again, I was told to use Protopic on it. Ultimately, the entire face was red and the conclusion was I have to use it for life. When I stopped using Protopic and started TSW, the redness spread from the face to the neck and shoulders. It looks okay now, but the face and the areas closest to where I used high potency steroids (e.g., left elbow) are the ones where the skin is still healing. 

Janina kindly provided this excellent collage
of her skin at different stages.
It says it all, really. Just incredible.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

I would not use Protopic again.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

From my experience, I think dermatologists are currently probably underestimating the potential risk of side effects from Protopic. Of course, they could tell you to pay attention with the sun due to the risk of developing cancer and to wear sunglasses when you are using it around the eyes. That side effect is extreme, so it is likely salient and scares them. But they should also pay attention to the possibility of withdrawal effects and especially look at or listen to patients describing how symptoms change when they try to wean off or reduce the amount they use. Just like with topical steroids, when the symptoms get worse every time the drug is stopped, that should be a bright red flag (pun unavoidable). I think the lesson from Topical Steroid Withdrawal should be that dermatologists who are currently optimistic about the promising alternatives to steroids look seriously at the possibility of similar withdrawal effects. To be honest, I am not sure if they are.


Karen (@tsw_kbg)
45-54

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

Steroid use on and off from baby "ezcema" age initially. Stopped for many years, then Betnovate on and off in my 20s and maybe some Hydrocortisone. Moved to the US in 1999 (29 years of age), and at some point in my 30s I was prescribed Tacrolimus (Protopic). I was then prescribed Triamcinolone 0.1% ointment, known as Kenalog (steroid). Then re-prescribed Tacrolimus as "eczema" was getting worse, but it soon stopped "working". Then prescribed Mometasone (steriod) in 2019 and was told to use as needed. Did so until summer of 2021.

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic (Tacrolimus) whenever my skin flared on my face, neck and elbow creases.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used just a teeny bit in each area but for a prolonged (several years) time frame.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

I did not use Protopic just before going into TSW, "just" steroids". I last used Protopic in probably 2018 (my chart notes are a bit messed up as I changed doctors). I went into TSW in June of 2021.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I am not sure if it has affected my withdrawal or not. I may have been going through Protopic Withdrawal when I had issues with the Protopic, then stopped, and I tried many different moisturisers and sun creams and shampoos to find something that didn't hurt – everything hurt.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

Absolutely not!!

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

Protopic was great when I first used it – my skin looked great – although, I did burn even more than usual in the sun (I'm a redhead!). But, when it started to burn when using it I knew it wasn't good. I did not know anything about the black box warning.  

My recall on my use of Protopic is not based on my chart notes as the doctor who first prescribed it (she was my favourite doctor ever and just following her medical teaching looking back), retired, and then I had two different doctors there, and then I had to go to a different doctor's office altogether as our insurance changed, but I think I was on Tacrolimus for several years and had it renewed a couple of times. I did find one chart note in 2013 that said do not refill in big red letters, but I feel like I got it again at some point. If I knew then what I know now, I would have avoided Protopic. Whether it has made my withdrawal from steroids worse or not, I'll never know, but the fact that my skin burned when I used it was enough of a warning sign for me to stop using it. Fast forward to 2021 and I met with a dermatologist just to see what they would say even though I knew at this point I was in TSW. He recommended I use Hydrocortisone over the counter, as it is just a mild steroid, and Tacrolimus. I explained how that had burned my face in the past so I didn't want to use it, and he said that yes he heard it could burn a bit upon application, but that some patients would put a cold compress on the location to numb it and then put the ointment on. I just nodded and ended the appointment and then emailed him the next day and politely declined his treatment option. Neither he, nor my doctor from earlier mentioned the black box warning that I have read about when using this medication.


Shauntaérose (@shauntaerose)
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

So I’ve had eczema my entire life. Like many others, mine started when my mom stopped breastfeeding and introduced other food supplements. I immediately started getting eczema all over my body. I can’t remember not ever having to use some sort of medicated cream. Over the years the dosage and strength increased. It would work for a while then come back. It would also flare around stressful moments in life. In 2014 my skin was really bad and the dermatologist I went to at the time had me on Protopic, Elocon and another immunosuppressant cream (I can't remember the name) which I used on rotation. I remember my skin falling off and burning. My skin became super sensitive to everything, especially water. I was never told how long to use it for – they just said to use it twice daily or as needed and the only thing they told me was that my skin would be sensitive.

2. When did you use Protopic?

From 2014 for around seven years.

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used it on rotation with the Elocon and the other immunosuppressant cream that I can't remember the name of. It was tricky as they told me to use it if I have a reaction, but to keep switching between the different medications. Honestly it's so confusing as they didn’t give me much information. Even though it was years ago, I remember her saying with Protopic, if it burns or gets sensitive to sunlight and water it’s normal, which always made me uneasy. I would get angry when I would use it because I knew it would hurt and sting when I took a shower.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

Yes I believe it did affect my skin, the way my skin burns. I used Protopic in specific areas and those are the areas that are now worse during TSW. 

Shauntaé sharing so much hope!
7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

No.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

With Protopic, I would say it gives you a false sense of healing. It heals your skin really fast, so you think you’re almost in the clear, but the addiction kicks in quickly so as soon as you start to taper off of it your withdrawal kicks in. 

I would advise anyone to take a different route if they can from all steroids and immunosuppressant creams and ointments. It’s not worth it. What you see is just physical symptoms. There’s the emotionally draining aspect of how it affects your relationships with friends and family, how it’s a burden on your life, how you want to hide away from the world or stop yourself from going out because you are embarrassed and insecure about your skin flaking and falling all over the place. Or having to carry a huge bag of 'just in case' creams, wearing gloves in the summer or wrapping up your skin, the comments from people about your skin, the judgement and assumption you're doing nothing about it, self-esteem, lack of sleep and insomnia from being in so much pain and itchiness and over heating at night. The bleeding, cracking and oozing and the financial burden. Never ever again!


Linds
18-24

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I've had eczema since I was a baby and used steroids on and off throughout high school. The only immunosuppressant I've used is Protopic. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

I started using Protopic in late high school, along with topical steroids still, but my use of both was pretty minimal. In college I only used Protopic. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

Consistently for about 1-2 years. I used it because I didn't want to use steroids anymore, and I had been told by my dermatologist that Protopic was safe to use very generously on my face. 

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No. 

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I'm pretty sure I'm in withdrawal from Protopic, not steroids. I haven't used strong steroids in years, and over the past year I have probably used OTC Hydrocortisone maybe five times in total. However, last summer (2021) I started noticing that my neck and lip were requiring more and more Protopic to have the same effect. I remember thinking that maybe since the tube had gotten kind of old that maybe it had just lost some of its potency ... I realise now that this doesn't really make sense hahaha and it was definitely that my body was addicted to it to some extent. I haven't used Protopic or steroids since last summer. As for withdrawal symptoms, I'm lucky in that I don't seem to have very many widespread effects, and that it has mostly just affected my lip and neck where I used the Protopic a lot! I've had extreme flaking almost constantly on my lips, but I will say I have noticed that any flare is less often and lasts a shorter amount of time now. 

Whilst I know I'm lucky in that my flares are in smaller areas and not across my whole body, it has really affected my life and my confidence. I just want people to know that even if they are only using Protopic in one small place it can really ruin your skin. 

One of the biggest symptoms of using Protopic is that my skin is just so sensitive to everything. Water, simple pressure (kissing my bf is a no :( ), and obviously I am not allergic to something like WATER, it's because my skin is so hypersensitive because of the Protopic use. 

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

I'd like to say I would go back and avoid using Protopic, but it was extremely helpful when I needed it. I wish I'd been more careful with it, and I wish that I'd been warned about the side effects and potential for addiction etc.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I recently learned in nursing school that Protopic is an extremely potent immunosuppressant used for organ transplants (to be fair, it's not exactly the same formula that they use for the ointments, but it's still Tacrolimus) and I don't see how my moderate eczema could have needed that. At the same time, when I was a middle and high school kid (early college too tbh) dealing with facial eczema flares, I would have done ANYTHING to get rid of them and not have to feel self conscious going to school, so I don't really regret that I used it. I just wish I'd been better informed about other ways to handle my eczema, too. 

Also, I was NEVER told about how much Protopic will MESS YOU UP if you're using it and you drink alcohol!!! When I was using Protopic, I noticed that whatever I drank, my lip and neck would get extremely red and hot (I flush when I drink anyway, but this was extreme and way more than the normal alcohol flush). I always was just kinda like "oh well, my eczema doesn't like alcohol" but then I read it's actually a known side effect of Protopic and I was just never told. I guess that's partly on me for not looking into it more, but you think my doctor would have mentioned that. I don't really drink anymore because it obviously is terrible for my skin and health, but I do occasionally and I don't have this problem anymore since I stopped using it. 

Now I am hoping that with time my flares will get less and less. I love seeing everyone's stories on Instagram because it gives me hope that my skin will be better than ever when withdrawal ends!


Selina (@seli__see)
25-34

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1. Brief overview of your steroid/immunosuppressant use.

I used steroid creams from 3 to 6 years old. After that I was symptom free until 2009 when I used Momegalen (mometasone furoate - a medium strength topical steroid) for a week, and again in 2020 for two weeks. After that I used Protopic. 

2. When did you use Protopic?

I used Protopic exclusively from July 2020-September 2021 and also briefly in 2009 and 2015. 

3. How much Protopic did you use?

I used 2 tubes (60g and 30g) between 2020 and 2021, twice a day, on affected areas such as my face, neck, décolleté, crook of arm.

4. Did you use Protopic during TSW?

No.

5. Did you use Protopic just before going into TSW?

Yes about 5 weeks before TSW.

6. Do you believe that Protopic has affected your withdrawal, and if so, how do you believe it has?

I have noticed that with Protopic the eczema has gotten progressively worse and spread all over my body to places it had never been affected before. It was whilst I was at a skin clinic that I was told about TSW and then never used it again.

7. If you could go back, would you use Protopic?

No, never again! Instead I would go to a skin clinic that works holistically without cortisone and immunosuppressants.

8. Thoughts on Protopic and your experience of using it.

I would never use Protopic again, this drug should be banned or needs better education especially about the side effects. These months in withdrawal are and were the worst months of my entire life, marked by brief suicidal thoughts. I couldn't work for 6 months and spent most of my time at home, which caused a high level of mental stress with sleep disturbances due to open, weeping, itchy wounds everywhere. Never again Protopic!


And lastly, two final (anonymous) accounts from those who used Protopic

Person 1

I used steroids pretty much my entire life. I got started on Protopic (I used a generic version just called Tacrolimus) because I had a bit of eczema on my upper lip and they told me that it was totally safe for my face! Soon, I quickly had eyelid eczema which I never had before. They advised me to keep using the Protopic, and it worked, but I noticed if I didn’t apply it around once a week it all came back strongly. I used for about a year before it slowly stopped working. I didn’t know about TSW at this point, and my derm advised Dupixent. I started Dupixent in March 2020. Everything cleared up, but 5 months in, the eye side effects of Dupixent were so severe I had to come off it. Slowly everything came back with a vengeance, specifically on my face and neck. I was prescribed Tacrolimus again and I used it for another 3-4 months before things just weren’t working anymore. I was prescribed a round of Prednisone pills, which really set off the TSW now that I’m looking back at it. I woke up with chills, my hair falling out in clumps, and eczema all over my face and neck. At this point I did some research and slowly learned about TSW.

I officially quit all steroids & Protopic in May 2021 and since then it’s been an absolute nightmare. I did a bit of NMT, then quit, and now I’m doing it again as lotions are far too painful to use.

I can very clearly see that the areas I used Protopic are by FAR the most damaged. I mostly used it on the right side of my face, and you can see the skin in those areas is thinner, more irritated, bruised, etc. I still ooze and crust. I can barely open my eyes in the morning or my mouth to eat. My body is doing pretty okay considering the circumstances, it’s really my face/neck and my right elbow and right shoulder (all areas I used Protopic thinking it was safe).

I highly regret using it, and I was told by my derms over and over it was safe. All the areas I used regular steroids have already healed, but the recovery from Protopic is taking far longer. I hope I get my quality of life back soon!


Person 2 (25-34) *This account can also be found in my TSW & THE GENITALS post (here)*

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I'm currently 33 years old, and I started using tacrolimus ointment when I was 28. I had developed a dry red rash on my penis and went to numerous doctors before seeing a dermatologist. The doctors tested me for STDs (the test came back negative, and I was tested again to be sure) and prescribed me triamcinolone, which was only mildly effective, and tried treating me for fungal infections, which didn’t help, before I saw the dermatologist. I was also in a long-term relationship at the time, and my partner was fine.

I had a biopsy taken, and the results didn’t really show much except for a lack of melanin. My dermatologist diagnosed me with vitiligo with inflammation and prescribed me 1% tacrolimus ointment. I wanted a second opinion, so I saw another dermatologist, and she said it was genital psoriasis. Protopic was deemed to be the solution to both problems.

I used it for about 5 years, and over time it was becoming less effective and my condition was spreading. I kept having to use more of it, and I was applying it daily, sometimes twice a day. I was worried something else was wrong with me that was only being masked by the Protopic, so I decided I was going to stop using it in February 2022. My dermatologist was pretty dismissive of my concerns, assured me it was vitiligo, and prescribed me desonide. I saw a urologist during this time also, and he didn’t have any answers for me either. I used the desonide some, but I didn’t want to put anything on it, so I stopped everything. It was about two weeks later that my psoriasis got really bad on my penis, and it was very red and bumpy. Over the next month, it got much worse: red, bumpy, swollen, oozing, and scabbing. I had pain, trouble urinating, and the folds of my skin were fusing together. I didn’t really know what was going on, I thought I had some disease that was repressed by the Protopic, and now it was back with a vengeance. I was just determined to leave my body to fight it. I only just realized that it was TSW that I was going through.

After about 2 months off the tacrolimus and steroids, I started to see improvements. It would get better for a while, then worse, but the first two months were by far the worst. I got a new dermatologist during this time, and he never mentioned anything about TSW. He didn’t know what it was, or what to do, and just told me to put Vaseline on it, which I did for a month then stopped. It’s now November 1, 2022, and my condition is doing quite well. I’d say it’s better than it was before I started taking the tacrolimus. I think I’m pretty much over the TSW now, and I’m just dealing with the original psoriasis like symptoms. I have started eating better, drinking less, and I quit smoking. Currently, I’m thinking that cigarettes caused my psoriasis or made it worse. I was never a heavy smoker, I just smoked moderately, sometimes once a day, sometimes none, sometimes up to around 3 on the weekends. I’m honestly quite embarrassed that it seems like I have gone through all this suffering for an occasional cigarette. Anyways, I’m feeling optimistic that eventually I can go back to completely normal, but time will tell. I feel very fortunate that I didn’t use Protopic in other places, and it has been a fairly fast recovery. 

The most depressing part of it all was that I didn't know what was happening. I was looking up a lot of stuff, and thought the tacrolimus was suppressing some other disease and it was coming back really strong after stopping the tacrolimus. I was determined to try and let my body fight off whatever was happening to me on its own. I didn't know about TSW or Tacrolimus withdrawal, and my dermatologists didn't tell me about either. It was scary not knowing what was happening.

A few weeks later, X contacted me to say that his skin is flaring right now and he’s feeling pretty demoralized as he thought it was over. He said, I mean, I know a lot of other people have it much worse, but it just really sucks to have this issue where I do as a man.

A little point I wanted to add is that whilst symptoms vary and range from full body to more isolated areas, suffering is suffering, and the mental toll of it can be devastating, no matter how small the area. But, to anyone reading, just look at what can happen with time, and how quickly things can change. Hold on x

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Thank you so much to everyone who shared their experiences with this drug so openly and honestly. Whilst TSW symptoms can be so varied, and recovery times are so different, when it comes to the influence of Protopic, there seem to be patterns forming that cannot be ignored any longer.

Bottom line is this: Protopic should simply not be in circulation as a drug, either for 'Eczema' or for those going through TSW who need to use something – hell, it can cause TSW. 

Again, I would like to take a moment to say that whilst I totally understand there will be people in this community who need to use something, and a withdrawal from all forms of immunosuppressant medication simply isn't an option (I hands down wouldn't have been able to go through TSW if my mum hadn't supported me emotionally and financially), I am concerned that as only the dangers of topical steroids are allowed to be shared and recognised, medical professionals will be forced to turn to these 'non-steroidal' 'safe' options like Protopic which might end up being worse than if someone had just stuck with topical steroids (remember, I'm not a medical professional and only sharing my non-medical opinion). 

I have shared many times now my concern over the name, Topical Steroid Withdrawal Syndrome, which was thrust into this community a few years ago during a time when we knew the problems stretched further than topical steroids. If we are really getting down to it, I shouldn't technically be in this community if we are going by the name alone as, like I said earlier, I believe I had to go through TSW because of a mixture of oral steroids and Protopic (mostly Protopic). And so, by calling an iatrogenic condition, Topical Steroid Withdrawal Syndrome, for the people who have just used Protopic (or for example, an oral steroid, which I am noticing is more and more common), they might not get the urgent medical information which also applies to them because they think TSW only applies to topical steroids. 

I think it's probably too late now to take TSW out of medical literature etc., and it has become so deeply entrenched within our community, but I don't believe it's too late for the the actual name of our iatrogenic condition to change. We currently have three names in circulation: there is Red Skin Syndrome (which was widely used before concerns were rightly raised as to it discriminating against other skin tones), there is Topical Steroid Addiction and now, Topical Steroid Withdrawal Syndrome. 

Why does the condition have to specifically name topical steroids? 

Can you imagine if there was just one definitive name out there instead of three weak and inaccurate ones that left the door open for others that have suffered because of medication that isn't topical steroids to walk through and join us in recovery. 

We are one beautiful skin community, so let's not break it into pieces when it should be a whole.

Sending all my love and healing if you are suffering right now. 

It gets better.

Cara x


Other posts in the series:

Let’s Talk About: TSW & The Genitals (here)

Let’s Talk About: Eczema Herpiticum (here)

Let's Talk About: Elidel (Pimecrolimus) & Eucrisa (Crisaborole) (here)

Let's Talk About: Oral Steroids (here)

Let's Talk About: The Nipples (here)

Let's Talk About: Mould/Mold (here)

Let's Talk About: Pregnancy (here)

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